Jabbing My Soul
The memory roils over my soul
stabbing stiletto of demeaning words
inserted into spirit and twisted.
Jabbing, jabbing, trying to cause pain
paring away self esteem in shavings
leaving barren waste of nothingness.
Blackened heart pulling me down
dragging me to his own Hell
afraid to be alone with himself.
Screaming in her Father's house.
Blaming , accusing, bathed in hate.
Years of his passive, self centered existence
Catching in my throat and then exploding
Leaving nothing uncovered. Fire that always burned within me
Suddenly burning loved ones.
Within one episode, he walks on pedestals and I walk on ice.