I felt my way down the

Dark hallway and

Into the bathroom,

Where I sat on the floor

By the shower and

Cried,

A million thoughts

Running through my mind,

My leg still warm from where

Your hand had rested.

I believe the most painful thing in the world would be loss.

There is something to be said about never knowing, but it is far greater to know what

n e v e r

w i l l

b e.

It’s the heart stopping, gut wrenching, panic stricken grief that will scar your soul.

Go back into your memories. Remember that day. Open your eyes and tell me exactly how you felt. Was it empty? Were you so distraught that you couldn’t speak for weeks? Was it even worse when someone told you not to grieve, that everything would be okay, that everything happens for a reason?

I know what has been, and I know that she will

n e v e r

g e t

t o

b e.

When you are fifty feet deep in a hole that never recedes

And you know your not alone because your friend hugs your knees

You still feel cold and alone and sad

Because you know there is no staying forever

Even if it's your mother or your dad

Friendship is temporary

But love is a permanent thing

You will feel your heart explode

When she gets a boyfriend and then a new ring

You will feel left behind in the dust

Unsure if you can or if you must

Will any one care

If you die over here or even over there?

You grab the knife

Feel the sharp tip

Think of all the hard times throughout your short life

You bring it to your shaking wrist

Breathing heavily and hard

You puncure the skin

Feel the pain travel through your arm

You remember the times

When you sat in that hole

Fifty feet deep

There was really no where to go

At least you had her

Sharing all the good memories

You talked for hours

About all the dead flowers

She will miss you

No matter how far away you may be

She loved you

And love

Is an infinite

Throughout all eternity