My mind likes logic

Numbers and reasoning make sense

The world just seems to work

Science has an explanation for everything

But science doesn’t do a good job at explaining emotions

And as of recent, my head has been filled with them

It’s a cacophony of noise and colors and things that don’t make sense

The most important time of my life, and I can’t think straight

Numbers and reasoning can’t help me here

I can’t connect numbers to emotions

Like I have for all my school grades

Or how many friends I have

Is it really love that I feel?

How can I tell?

There’s no numbers, no reasoning, just feelings and feelings and so many feelings

I want to blame it on something other than love

My physics class can’t help me here

My math classes are useless

History isn’t doing me shit

English just helps me write these words

Normally the things I think make sense

Connections are made cause they make sense

But all these emotions aren’t making sense

My numbers and reasoning are failing me

Wolves.

Why am I thinking about wolves? Must be because of that book I read a few days ago, but I am desperately trying to link things together and all I can think about is wolves. Neil Gaiman used that werewolf example a few times I think, where a werewolf bit a chair and the chair became a chairwolf or something. That was really interesting and it's like how do people come up with all these cool ideas while in my brain it's just cobwebs and emptiness. Well, sure, I do have ideas but it's weird because it's so hard to have to find them and pull them out of my head. It's like chasing after an ant or something. You don't want to kill it because it's so small. But it's so hard to catch.

I think I need to do more reading lol