models and

influencers on

Instagram

the girl who

shows us

her make up

routine

every day

with her latte

we live to

please the male gaze

but at what point

does the envy

go away

i'm

always scared

that you'll leave

me

that the

silence is

going to

last forever

that the

tangled knot

that keeps

us together

has been

untied

but still

you complete me

and your voice

is the one

that narrates

the thoughts

inside of my

head

The truth is the Person Hate and Love all at once, is most likely the person I will Grow old with. Not because I said 'yes' when he finally fell on one knee and said those special words most girls dream of hear, even those who deny they want to hear it "Will you marry me?"

But because out everything that has my mind boggled theres one thing I am sure off...

You were specially created from me. Days when you gone for longer then an hour it feels like a week slipped by. Days when we argue, and dont speak I just want to kills you, yet i find myself doing selfless acts of caring without thinking. When you having a bad day; we are having a bad day. Sometimes you breathing can set me off, yet in those very moments you the only person I want close.

I hate you because since you entered my life I cant remember a time without you in it and I can't picture a life without you. And it scares me...I'm not one to scare easily.

I love you despite all your flaws because they are most probably the things that attracted me to you.

The terrible, angry

grip of her voice,

berating me,

belittling me,

infuriating me

without provocation,

without justification.

Her against me.

I should go.

I should leave.

I should flee.

I should run.

All the shoulds

add up

to little.

One approving glance,

one kind word,

one soft caress,

one gentle kiss,

is all for which

I live.

I hate you

yet I can't

cause

you mean more to me

than the sea

we came up with bob

i hate you

but i love you

you made our quote

we saved one another

yet we killed each other

Let me twist your words

To make them love me

This love

Deeply rooted in my soul

Does it hurt this much for you?

You can’t know

You said there was no heartbreak

I can taste it in my coffee in the morning

No cream, unsweetened, black

Addictive

You got me to fall for you

And made me think you fell harder

I hate the way this has to be

I hate you for how much I love you

As I glare into your eyes

I see the beauteous depth of my distaste for you, my love.

I stare at your smile

And I fall back in love.

Then, I attempt to kiss your loathsome lips

But I find they disgust me so.

They’re simply the method you use to tell me more lies.

I see your mannerisms, those things you do

And I remark at the many ways you cause me to fall deeper in love.

At the same time, I foam

At the mouth,

Become enraged

From all the things you seem to do.

I’ve just decided

Made the conclusion

That this romance we’ve had

Has always been just an illusion.