We deserve better, but not each other.
“ You didn't fight for us; you just let go, didn't feel sorry for me leaving. It feels like you were waiting so long for me to walk away.”
“I just couldn't do that.”
“ I could not love you. I tried, I swear I did, but it was not you the one.”
“Then why did you stay for a whole-damn year? Did you ever mean all the I-love-you! It took me forever to make you feel something for us!”
“ I fell in love with the idea of you being with me, was not you.”
“ You could have been honest with me, could have left earlier before we hooked up those grief ties!”
“I wanted to leave before you left, could not help loving and feeling all the good things we did."
“Such foolish, deceitful crook.“
“We do deserve better, but not each other.“
“You did not deserve me.”
" I appreciate what you are trying to do, but I don't want you any closer. I will fail you just like everybody else."
" But I want to be with you; you next to me"
" Admire me from afar, it will be less bitter for us "
" Give me a possibility to prove something different and meaningful"
" I have heard, seen and lived through those idioms, and I didn't like the ending "
" If it is a movie for you, I will be Flynn Rider. You're my new dream, let me live that with you."
" But dreams are illusions "
" And if we are delusional, at least we both once lived it all right."
It is okay.
" If you had a chance to say your last words, what would they be?"
" It is okay if this is the ending of everything."
"It is okay to let go of what doesn't serve you anymore."
"It is okay to take a longer time to heal."
"It is okay if they are not your people."
" It is okay to stay in your comfort zone."
"It is okay not to know everything."
“ I am glad you are here.”
“ Been a while since we exchanged a word.”
“ I think this shall be the right time to tell you something, yet I am afraid it would not be proper for you."
“ Take a breath. Nothing to think about twice."
“ We have known each other for almost a year now. It is always the best time whenever you are in it. I was as scared as you were to be intimate, but you helped me find peace, security, and certainty each time we spoke or sat in silence praising the world around us. Gently, I found myself when I knew you."
“ Can not find words to reciprocate what you said, to be equitable: it feels like home being with you; it was hard to attach the cord.”
“ I heartily believe everyone deserves a person like you.”
“ You & I, and not everybody else.”
“ I really want to grow and evolve, but I do not feel comfortable with change. “
“ How uncomfortable is it to you?.”
“ It feels like being a foreigner in my hometown.”
“ That is exactly how you should feel. The body is the same, but the mindset is different. A foreigner learning the directions and techniques as much as it takes; a citizen when the roads get familiar, the timing gets faster, and getting home gets safer.”
Good, Healthy Self-care
" Maybe all you need is to take some time for a good, healthy self-care"
" But I can't afford that in the meanwhile."
" What do you want to afford ?"
" A good spa day, holiday in an elegant hotel with a nice view and swimming pool, luxury shopping and a promising dinner in a fancy restaurant.
" That is not self-care. That's pampering."
"So what did you mean by "self-care"?"
" Self-care is a necessity. Pampering is luxury. Sometimes pampering is self-care but most times its settings boundaries. Learning to say "no" when you mean it. Talking to yourself with kind words. Knowing that you had enough and leaving the places and people. Saying yes to things you leave eating or doing and don't be ashamed or feeling it's a waste of time. As long as it makes you happy, it isn't a waste. Discovering what you need and doing it. "