regret and other pains
sometimes there is just pain
not the physical, no
that would have been too easy
that pain that occupies your heart
and weights down on your soul
is the worst kind
I'm so tired of that feeling inside me
as if I may fall apart at any minute
little pieces of me
falling to ground every day
sometimes, I notice
and at others, I don't
they fall off so quietly
lower than a whisper
until one day... to just go out with a bang
or maybe I won't notice that too?
maybe I am so oblivious to the world around me
that I will just stay in the dark of my own ignorance?
what makes my pieces not work the right way?
can someone tell me what the "right way" looks like?
because trust me when I say,
I have never seen it before in my life
I need perspective
or else I am going to lose it