Greed oh Grief

You were always there though not everyone notice you.

Grief oh Greed

Why did you took most man’s heart as home and pretend you’re good?

Greed oh greed

How could we not notice you when you are always there pretending to be normal part of day and life.

Greed oh greed

you were there from the beginning

When I was a little girl you’re there when I won’t give a cookie to my dog coz I want it all for me.

When I hid the chocolate in my pocket when my cousin arrived and told her I ate all the chocolates.

Oh that’s not you? Is that another sin?

ah yeah Selfishness your another persona.

Greed oh Greed

I was not ever told that you are a great actor.

You are best in changing your image.

Such as selfishness.

Yeah you’d tell everyone selfishness is common to children... your best lie.

Greed you were there since we were little.

You were there when someone I know chose to have all the credits for the well job I’ve done. You reigned in her heart.

You gave her the overwhelming feeling of pride, praise and everything.

Now she won’t stop taking every credit that are not due her.

Well done greed, you ruined her life.

Everyone hates her now because of the feeling you’ve caused her.

#SarcasmAlert, greed

You affected everyone

Yeah everyone.

You are inse the taxpayer’s heart

I mean the tax payer who does not wamt to pay his taxes honestly for he wants to keep his money to himself.

You are inside the employer who just can’t wait to leave work when the time chimes right. To fhe man who sits and watches everyone going crazy because of his works undone.

That opinionated man who has lots of ideas but dies not want to carry any burden ypu are in him. You have many faces indeed.

You are in those people who make themselves feel better by tearing other people down rather than by helping others feel good about themselves and to the people who have the ability to suck the oxygen right out of a room... You are there.

Our sense of entitlement that was you. You made us feel that we are worth than what we have so we crave for more.

You are a deceiver

What else could I say?

You are a spirit that does not come from The Holy One infact you came from the opposite one. That is why you oh greed

Is one of the deadly sins.

You are a sin.

That is why you are planted inside of everyone.

Just like your “siblings” yeah I am talking about pride your brother, envy your sister, lust, your uhm your ancestor?

Whatever the seven of you came from one angel

oops ex angel

GREED

you belong to the former “bringer of light”

Isn’t it because of you that he fell from the heaven?

POWER that is higher than his CREATOR.

that’s what he craved for.

Glory, honor and praise

the former bringer of light

the former seraphim

wished for.

The green eyed monster joined you

yeah your sister envy joined with you, greed together with your brother pride and your another brother glutton(y) (in power) and the former seraphim

You bribed third of the population of angels to have what?

ah yeah Coup d’état against God.

And the tyranny?

Yeah brought the angels and the former bringer of light to downfall, to hell.

That’s why you are here on earth to manifest to every mankind

for you and your brother could not accept that you will be locked in hell.

I used to allow you in my heart.

You and sone of your brothers

but you kbiw what greed?

You have no loner grip on me you and your brothers.

All the chains that have been holding me to you have been broken when I let Jesus reign in me.

Bye greed

and to your siblings too.

Greed has many faces and they aren’t all about money or power. Greed is a reflection of self-interest taken to an extreme; selfishness pushed to the point of imposition upon others or the world around you. Like so many negative attributes, greed sits on the flip side of healthy ambition, self motivation, and aspiration to more. Our good intentions gone to extremes. In this sense, we are all creatures of light and dark and our best selves, our greatest gifts, are the same things that take us to our worst when we go too far.

#greed #SevenDeadlySins

So how many years has it been since the last time I got a glimpse of you?

Oh one or two years ago. Right. You were there standing a couple of rows behind in the church, and then the following Sunday you were sitting on my left side. We were asked to find partners, it should be you, I felt your stare at my back, probably waiting for me but I turn to my right and grab whoever that is.

I thought I have forgotten you

I was browsing my media account, stalking someone else.

I was browsing my media account, stalking someone else. inlike you. So I browsed his account and watched every video, at first I was enjoying it, there were videos of him singing and dancing.

You know I don't like dancing, but I was with you when I first saw him, he was on the stage drenched with sweat, and moves gracefully, it was the first time I ever watch a dance performance.

You know who I am talking about.

You know him.

SO I stalked him. But then I started to get bored of his videos.

Watching his videos became a habit of mine.

Until lately, I found my self bored with his videos and his antics.

You told me before

TO do my self a favor and never compare you to anyone else, for I will just look for more of you. You were so proud of your self, youare so oconfident. COnfident that no one will be ever compared to you.

Until the day I met him. And I told you I asked him to join me in work. You just smiled at me and my decision. It was him who was there when I was sad and not you.

He was there when I needed to talk with you about my day. He witnessed my sufferings but he is just a witness. He dared not to even interfere.

I never forgotten you when he was there.

I just thought I have.

Yes. It is true that his videos made me smile, giddy

but

Today

Today when I opened my social media account it was your video

. It was shared by our friends, perhaps to show me that you are doing fine.

I am happy you are doing fine.

I smiled immediately when I saw you on that video.

That's when I realize

No one can ever take your place in my heart.

So I played it.

You were now a police inspector being interviewed by known broadcaster.

The moment I heard your voice, my lips began to smile , not just a simple smile but a stupid smile. Ooops I was not at home when I watched your video so I look stupid to the eyes of others. I look stupidly proud of you. I wanted to shout and brag that you are my friend. My once confidante, the friend I love, the one who never judge but pray.

I left a comment on your video not even waiting to be recognized

but you acknowledge my comment and gave a reply, telling me that it is still the old you just newer. And I know I know that it was, is, and STILL the one I cherish.

Why?

Why have You forsaken Me?

I know it is too hard for You to look at Me

Your Son, You Holy Son bearing the shame of the world We've created.

Eli Eli, this too shall pass right?

After this, everyone will be reunited with us.

I am willing to die for them

Just so they can be saved.

Eli Eli, I know it's death that would redeem them

My death will pay all their debts.

My DEAREST Author,

Hi! How are you?

Really I don't know how to start this letter.

I am here in front of my laptop, probably YOU are wrting this scene in the book I am living in. There are hundreds of things I want to say to You, to ask You, and to ask of YOU.

You have given me emotions, feelings, family, way of thinking. I don't know if my thoughts are mine or You placed it inside my head.

The family You have given me is not perfect, though there is no one perfece except YOU. For You created everything.

This feeling towards him, the admiration, the anger, the shyness I am feeling I don't know if these are mine. If the thoughts I am thinking towards him, what would happen to it? If I am willing to let go, not of him but of my self would it be of my self or it would be you? If I have a freewill please help me to let this feeling go away. If he would not be a constant companion or thing in my life, AUTHOR please help me get rid of him.

I don't know what's your plan for me except to prosper me and give me hope, which is a line I've read from the books I am reading inside this book. Then please. Just please give me a sign or probably it is already written in the book.

The feelings I am feeling towards everyone, I wonder if they would stay as it is, if it does, I wonder when would it end, because I don't want to feel those anymore.

My attitude, I hate it. Please change me, my character, attitude, way of thinking, even the way I speak. Author, there are times when I hate my self. I don't know if it is just like this, but I want YOU to know I sometimes hate me! I hate that there are times I act rude when all I want to do is to be nice.

I have changed! I know You know it.

There are times when I look back on my past and then think of the things, and then I would just realize that I was not the me before. I hate me now. This is not who I was before. Before I was sensitive, full of emotions, of love, compassion and forgiveness. Then, I was full of energy, laughter and happiness, I always laugh before in simple little things, I appreciate every little thing, but now? Now I don't know who I am anymore.

As I grew up and as You continue to write my life, as you renew my thoughts, I realized that I lost the things, feelings, attitudes I have before. The bad thing, is those lost things were the good ones. There are times that I wish I have Hermione's time turner so I can travel back in time and change the things I hate, to repeat the things I wish I can, and to right my wrongs. But life, thought me to just move on. You thought me not to dwell in the past for YOU are doing new things.

I am thinking if I am just another character in the book You are writing, uhm when there are things I know that I'm gonna say then forget it suddenly, is it You who is backspacing my lines? haahahaha

Author, I don't know what is in store for me in this book called life that you are currently writing. I know that You know what I want, I pray that You would grant my prayers. I am afraid of tomorrow, but You taught me that there is nothing to be afraid of, for You are alredy in my tomorrow, and never as in never in my life have you forsken me. So whatever it is please be there in my tomorrow.

I don't know what to say anymore. Thank You author for my family, like I've said no-one is perfect but they are enough for me. For giving me the lifestyle I am living thank you I love it. Thank You author for giving me a family in this book who taught me to fear the Lord. For teaching them to fear Him too and for giving us the belief and faith of living with God after this.

For my personal opinions, thank you. For the feelings that hurts thank You for making me able to feel emotions. For my future I still don't know it please give me my own family, a husband who fears the Lord above all, a husband who would honor me and our marriage, a husband who would lead me to the Lord even more. A husband who would give me children to spoil. I know my book is already done or halfway there already, I hope I'll have a happy ever after. And my parents too.

I'll end this here, my Author, my Lord.

Love,

Your daughter, character, believer.

CAPscicle

Star spangles

Steven

Captain

Captain Rogers

Steve

Super soldier

Mr. Rogers

He has many names but to me

He is captain america

Who would not wnt him as a body guard?

He's tall, super strong, and he is a gentleman. He can take anyone anytime.

Tumingin ako sa salamin

Doon ko nakita

Pigura ng babaeng hindi ko na kilala.

Ang kanyang mga ngiti nananatili lang hanggang sa labi.

Mga mata nya na noon ay makikislap,

Luha na lamang ang ngayon ay mahahagilap.

Salamin salamin sa iyo ay walang mailihim.

Ang iyong ipinakikitang repleksyon

Bunga ng buhay at kanyang leksyon.

Salamin salamin

Iyong tanggalin mga inya sa aking mukhang hindi naka tutuwa.

Salamin salamin

Ipaalala sa akin sino ako noon nang akin siyang maangkin.

#mirrormirror

Hanggang kailan

Hanggang kailan ako mag titiis na magdusa sa mga kasalanang hindi ko naman gawa?

Hanggang kailan ako mag titiis sa mga ugaling nakasasawa na?

Hanggang kailan ako mag papanggap na ang lahat ng ito sa akin ay ayos lang.

Hanggang ailan ko hahayaan na isipin ninyo na ang pang-aapi sa kapwa ay ayos lang?

Na ang pag-uusap patungkol sa kanila at ang pang-aalipusta ay normal na?

Hanggang kailan?

#tagalog #filipino

Today

I will dance

in wildness,

silhouette swaying

in amethyst shadows,

wrapped in translucence

in daisy chain, twisted

in tendrils of hair,

swaying in blooms

of the wind,

tangoing in world

of trances,

draped in black lace,

staccato beats,

tap dancing

in bare feet,

music flowing

to the end of my toes,

shimmying my heart out

to the end of love

and back,

spinning to edge

of laughter,

following footprints

in the spin

of the clouds,

never touching

the ground.

#DanceInAbandon

today, you will breathe in.

today, you will allow something to fall.

today, you will pick something up.

today, you will continue going,

for today, you will not end.

for today, you will not die.

for today, you will not give in,

for today, you will want to,

for today, you will resist it,

for today, you will realize that,

for today, you will perservere,

for today, you will be loved.