baby blue

I regret nothing,

But I regret you.

Wasted winter, summer, fall, and spring.

Seasons of my life, all tainted by your blue.

It was always blue,

Even from the start.

Royal, cobalt, navy, too.

But I love the blue, just not on my heart.

Conversation all in blue,

Don’t you know I worry?

You left me on read, 12:32.

Blue caused by you, made my eyes blurry.

Sleepless nights in sheets of blue

If we’re still together,

“y do i feel like i’ve lost u?”

“idk, i just think u deserve better”

I can’t leave you with the blue,

Baby, blue is the worst.

It’s cold, but not cold enough for you.

Seems cruel but cool at first.

“u never told me u felt this blue”

My thumbs dance over the screen, not knowing what to say.

“i didn’t have to. u already knew.”

He didn’t talk to me till tuesday.

I ended things with a bubble of blue.

“i think we should end this”

“but i’m still in love with you”

I am a snake, peeling layers of myself off in bits.

Like a puppet, held back by my string.

I’m alone now, but I’m free of your blue.

I regret nothing,

But I regret you.