When Me And The World Spoke

I sat alone on a warm

But languid sunny day

There was an absence in

The air that had its own way

Abstractionism sees my death

When words won’t form lines

The cold absence is shelter for

A soul lost in spaces we can’t find

Turmoil insists on making me smile

I can’t be mad because at least he tried

The absence of a smile told me how to

Laugh…the funny thing is that it lied

I sat alone on a bench on a languid

Cloudy day when the world said no

I asked her why now and seh just looked

Away at all the lies that he just told

I looked to see if the world had a smile

But got lost in her captivating eyes

When I got to know her and peeled

Away the layers…I saw her disguise

She is filled with sorrow and doesn’t

Know how to smile anymore, you see

She woke up in a pool of blood

And cried out at thee sight of me

She danced with me one more time

Though and we got lost in the tune

She said she didn’t love me anymore

Smiled and covered thee sky in gloom

She walked away and didn’t even look…

I was devastated and lost in the cracks

She kept walking, ignoring my screams

I ran to her and shoved a knife in her back

Now the world is mine and I will put her away

In a box so I can remember just how she looked

I can tell you now the world is a much better place

Because her lies are all that I took

Do birds sing morning hymns to God for us all?

To glorify, everyday, The One True Almighty King

Does the morning sun in Heaven rise or fall

I bet even the reddest of roses has a voice that rings!!!

You look down on us and smiled, so we look up

You gave us the everlasting love we couldn’t have known

We sing Songs To You Father and You fill up our cup

We can feel Your presence as a wholesome wind blows

Please keep us in Your Firm, but gentle grasp always

Keep us from harm and guides us in this life

We are like little kids in the fields that frolic and play

Protect us from satan when he keeps throwing knives

God loves us all, even when we stray far apart

If you don’t know Him, please don’t wait another day

You can have eternal life too and God in your heart

Get down on your knees, there is no comports to say

I hope life finds true happiness in love

And we become lost to an infinite escape

I hope inner peace finds you well enough

And you are winning the battles you replayed

I hoped for an insatiable love from another

And found that request to be a little odd

For, you can be stabbed in the back by your brother

But you WILL NEVER be betrayed by God

I look out for rejection like like it owns a bigger gun

And found out that it’s bullets are silver lined

My blood stains are bright red and midnight fun

Like the damning of souls that become intertwined

Did love find rejection too when it poured out its heart

Did time lose faith in the peace it had been shown

Did we lose the battle with only a heartbreaking start

Or is this the life that we have always known

Oh Father, tell the birds that sing

To give me a brand new song

Tell them to sing it so loudly

Nothing in this world could go wrong

Oh Father, please give me a rose

Make it bright enough to ease my pain

Make it so beautiful and so bright

That the whole world wants to give it a name

Oh Father, please give me a golden sun

Make it’s rays a calming sight to behold

Let everyone that sees it’s beauty

Know a Peace That Can’t Be Untold

And Father, please remember my loved one’s

Send an angel to love them and guide their way

Tell their hearts to hold on to a tear from time to time

And remember the good times happiness replays

Tomorrow Father, let come whatever may

Let us love the world for what we have or haven‘t lost

This life will always be a special place to call home

And we will Love Jesus NO MATTER THE COST

I often see a demon in the mirror

Hidden behind a black veil

Eyes white like the dead and lost

When our eyes meet my skin goes pale

I can hear his voice in my head in silent times

It sounds like the whisper you needed to hear

His words are like pure acid to a perfect rose

But he satiates a hunger when chaos draws near

Love loses its luster when he swoons inside

His chaotic anger is a drug like pure heroin

When does absence insists on mental withdraw

Give me an emotion…it feels like I am carrying him

Lust is the color red in liquid puddles

Sin is a dream that we once had but lost

I am losing the color hidden in plain sight

Tell me life isn't a survivor of my holocost

Tell them that I am happy now

That I awake every morning with a smile

Tell them that the world is no longer a scary place

Tell them another lie thats, “worth while”

Tell them that I am happy in my loneliness

That I gave up waiting for them to love me

Tell them that I’m alone with nothing but my thoughts

And I hope they are happy with what I now believe

Tell them that they no longer control me

That I can live a happy life alone in my mind

Tell them that they no longer have a reason

To stick a dulled knife in my heart from behind

Tell them that I am trying to forgive

Tell them I am doing it for myself and not them

Tell them that it is taking all that I have

Tell them I am trying letting go of the hate I hold within

And then tell them they will never see me again

When I let go of the look in their subtle smile

And then tell them that I will be happy when I do

Because they have been the source of my pain for a while

When I let go, only then will I learn to hold a smile

The weight in my soul shall be a feather in the wind

I know that God looks down on me form above

HE!!! Has always been my one and only friend

The demon lives in a dark room

Forming my wretched thoughts

The demon dances in a red dress

Seductively insisting mental rot

The demon rejects any emotion

To protect me from…well, myself

But is it the lacking inside that is real

With the yearning for blood that I felt

I pretend to be someone I am not

Sometimes it’s easier just to disappear

Everyone’s else’s lives look like a movie

Put on display for me to see and hear

One day, the demon will let me smile

Passing from languid rejection to glee

One day, the demon will lose his grip

And I won’t have to pretend to not be me

Some Words

I watched the world dance

In a languid display,

It was dressed in colorful rags

And had no style to it’s hair, so to say

But it was so beautiful

In an odd sort of sense

It’s feet were blistered though

And it made a sort of, wence

But then the world lost it’s color

And it sort looked like it faded

It lost it’s emotional expanse

And it reclused from a land it hated

The world had trauma in it’s life

And it’s dance showed it’s scars

The world tried to love again, really

But it was the lonely one in the back of the bar

The world found the words…save me Father

And learned to love once more

It forgot its hateful thoughts

And felt His love in it’s core

The world started to dance again

Just like it used to long ago

And the world no longer felt distant, because

There are some words you just need to know

I Refuse!!!

To accept certain facts

And eventually, move on

The world, in front or behind

Me now, that life never condones

Till death, from this life, and now I stand

Till forever more…forever now... I'm forever alone

Walking away from these bastards and hate

Once given…that they’ve always shown

Roses wilt in the eye of a storm,

They breath in life that love has lost;

Withered now, my soul to part this life

Like the soul of a flower left in the frost;

To oppose a thought that forever entombs

In the dying moment you forget the cost

To leave this world is a thought I've pondered

In the moments when my living reality gets tossed

If hell didn't await…what then

The voices try and trick me, they always misconstrue

They make me feel like life can't get any better

Like I'm only being molested or abused

You can twist my mind all you want

You can turn my hazel eyes a shade of blue

But I can say, I'm stronger than you thought,

Because I tell you now, I fefuse!!!

To dream a dream

And dream again

To see the end

And live free once more

To bleed one drop

A drop of an unridiculed truth

To reduce a complex thought

Into a bland misconception

To oppose reality

And truly exist

To live on true faith

And see what life could be

To dance in the rain

And know how happiness feels

To feel one true emotion

And feel life unfold within me

To yearn for another

And know true love exists

To teach a life lesson

And see existence again

To not die a lonely death

And extinguish a lifelong fear

To see Jesus

And