Dreamy Escape
Cold calls i await
Text messages make mundane
Days brisk.
Assassin tongue
Hurling curling shurikens,
Light cuts swell blood blue,
Slight lashes trail you…
Starlit eyes flashing
Glassy gloom,
Barks In
Walls d i m
Hips
slim,
Twirling, guiding her,
Contemplating each step.
Silk lies, dress sways,
Mind plays
Forgotten reticence
Pacing truth
Luring your
elements.
Walls that never break
Eyes of terror
Broken and tattered
Strays of past years
Unseen,
Even before you.
Walls to celebrate what we
Hate.
Fermented cabbage,
Kimchi kisses as we passed
Days that left,
Just as our fathers did,
But yours paid.
Mine went across that wall,
Handcuffed and bloodied,
I stayed back and studied,
Made my family proud,
Just kept awards coming
Let my mental shatter,
Anxiety on my morning
Platter,
34×32, 7/11 booze, 21
Growing fatter,
Eating decadent sweets,
Outrageous eats on unwinding
Streets.
Overflowing like soju
Running down my lips,
Bar hopping,
Killing the kid that never lived.
Calls with my mother every month
Or so…
Pick up where we left,
Tell me,
Why did he leave?
Did you know that I remember
The last fight you two had?
That at 19 I wanted to…
Some thoughts crawl
And make you remember,
Make each cinder brick
Weigh a bit less,
Walls
Seemingly
Indestructible.
Madhous
Days of plain vengeance
Bounce around my fun-house-head
Metal marbles click-clack and
Scar.
Nothing weighs what it should
From afar you would think you've grown,
But really you're no different
Just looks and glares that
Double your persona
Like a madhouse.
Smiles upside
Down, and frowns with teeth?
Pass me the soundtrack you thought was playing when you broke down,
That moment when heart aches seemed like
Your bitter end,
When really,
Your brain was stressed.
Out of breath.
Hardly What It Seems
Hardly what it seems
Twelve A.M across scowling sheets,
Frowns repeat in strong shrieks
You sing like gentle spring
Droplets,
Barricades in your esophagus
Quiver-
I sing in shattered
Consonants,
Palisades pierce my tongue
Bitter-
Smooth blood you left
Unpaved,
Pencil shavings spread across
Your desk
Clogged shower drain-
Sing another week
When summer comes
In studio apartment dreams
Stinging echoes of rusty pipes
Linger a roaring tune
Neighbors pounding fists
against
Towering doors,
Love ending beyond your
Kitchen sink
Adulthood is hardly what
It seems.
Ring Side Seats
Bullet holes and death
I know better than my therapist.
Stare at me before you diagnose me
Talk a little, hear my tales.
Matter of fact let me help you,
Pick you up from your pity stupor;
That abuse you’ve poured
Takes its toll .
Round six of this fight and
I’m floored.
You’ve toured my mind
What do you think?
Blood splattered on the ring
Think this congested chest
Is worth my end?
Tell me when I return.
I’ve learned to dodge and
Weave, roll if I have to
Take the abuse down low
With my guard up
Speak from your chair
I’ve had enough.
you fall so beautifully
I heard you were lost
Pressed against California costs
Learning what my brother did at twenty-six,
Out in Houston, Texas
where my essence
Is.
Paranoid
So I mold this clay chest,
push ups
and
bar hangs
Stars
fade
and
I play
Words
From the ancients.
All at once:
I was a Mustang
swerving
off the road,
..… a comet …..
only seen through your
peripherals
The whining voice at the brink of exhaustion.
I carve impatience from my baggy
E y e s
Laugh
again and again
Yet I feel that ache
Thumping like sickly love,
mistrust cycling ventricles:
It's never that simple.
Doctors say I'm stressed
Something chasing my bloodline
Exposed veins shine like sacrificial cliffs
Golden rocks with newly blazed moss:
I am bleeding and burning,
Loving
You
sprinting paycheck
after paycheck.
You
Fall
So
Beautifully
From your family tree
Tumbling rapidly in fields of yesterday:
Green eyes undulating like rolling wet film
Flames like sea walls
d i v i d e d
Slowly lashing as i walk impatient
Talk until my lips shut.
December 2012
At the church
Last walk of my light
Vigils lit with tender glows
As if that night we were invited;
A family torn to three
Granted one last chance at humanity.
Without
a
L
I
F
E
L
I
N
E
I find my honest self….
blood scurrying past my face
slowing enveloped
in your sins
Wonder what you were like at 23,
What you fought for before you
Vanished.
I seek life in every breath
Take steps to my origins
Wish to extinguish
Your
Image
.
. . .
.
.
En mis sueños te veo pa
Alli estoy enfrente de la tele
y tú con el cuchillo en la mano
¡Y la sangre!
El día que nunca se va de mi memoria
me despierto con tu cara
En el espejo,
Mideo ardiendo a traves
De mis ojos.
Escucho tu voz pa
Hablando de Morelia,
Y tu infancia.
Mi hermano mayor es tu reflejo
Y yo
Una sombra de tu personaje.
No sé si te volveré a ver
pero sé que nunca olvidaré
los años que tuvimos.
for better or worse.
Today I Learned
I. Today I Learned
I bury all I am in my sins,
Faith in liquored-love.
Fairy bottles replay static memories.
Plenty of bruises, red rift scars,
Blood spurts
And limbs locked;
Punch drunk tempting her fate
Corroding cherry wraith
Goblet crush
Top her off!
Sure today I tell you how I feel.
Daisy fangs swirl a trillion;
At midnight we sat in the back seat of the
Silver mustang
Butterflies fluttering in circadian allure
Fresh foaming crystal brew wrestling my mangled tongue.
With You playing, windows open,
Honeycomb night air veiling
Tingling liquored-liver,
I stare at your phone
and
silver skylines end.
II. No names left to trust
So I develop my alter ego,
gold chain hanging
To my mosaic heart,
I stumble among extinct stars,
Trap cold character:
Ice Age.
Soon the round world fades,
Faces blur, gold lenses curve all
l o v e.
Jump my h o p e.
Tan cap like Yin
and
Yang.
Polo emblem my ensemble;
Her tan skin like drops of honey
Sky resembles my F e a r.
III. Sin Miedo Me Voy….
Heaven only knows what awaits
Sore shoulders and unfurling gates
Trade stress for two thousand hops
Crack calve muscles:
Tectonic shift.
Cortisol huffs cool in serotonin rush
Far off I see liquified azul twilight
Orange creamsicle dreams,
Splashes of tangerine
flutters.
Infectious spirals smile before
collapsing.
I felt nothing but
Crushing breathes,
Heart echoing in my cavernous chest
droplets forming
Calcified
d
e
p
t
h
s.
IV. It Began With the Sun
Laser rays and isolation
Just how I would spend
the end of
My sunflower youth
Before I set off to my adventure,
A life that could not be claimed by
My mother’s past
Only my feet marching to newfound
Fear.
I wore a silky white T-Shirt,
Daisy wore overalls and a gray long sleeve
Late summer sun blazed black leather seats,
Metal belt stung with magma jaws;
A day at the mall with friends,
That's all It was.
I was just coming back from Houston
Something about the city ate away at me,
My family felt like a parasitic reflection:
A dystopian image I could not rattle- so I
Marched off.
Nothing but plains blessed my surroundings,
Farmland said to be gold
Dead grass like evergreen forests
Orchards sprayed with white paint
Tar roads with chalk drawings leading
Up to
Twists and turns
Here I faded away from
The front seat conversations
Let my shy tendencies take hold
Gold lenses flaring with curiosity,
H o p e.
V. Tonight You Belong To Me
I saw a maniac on the car roof in
The mall garage parking lot slowly slipping,
Screaming, not afraid but excited,
Clenching stupidity and death with flailing arms.
I awoke from my silent stupor, shot
Joy from my anchored mind
Strolled shop after shop realizing what this could all be,
Freedom from laser rays and isolation:
A new happiness.
Embers
Flakes of creation pranced Infinite bound
Cosmic darkness, clashing gray puffed clouds and
Rustic fields fortuned by dandelion wisps
Wailing against ocean deep canvas clouds
Simulations clamored red eyes of stardust
Novae laughter locked light kevlar hatred,
Platelets scurried to sparred rifts, en garde new
Hell ten year holocaust, sauna mist drowns
Arctic iced whiskey cup; talk and talk 00-4
Burn every nuclear home- just as you did
Before. Aims wished sanctuary ashes
Away, Cowells at bay staring into
Fiery magma fins, sweet tangerine walls
Lashing tepid shed roof, wooden spine squeals
Sundered focal synapse: revolution
Revved as bumbling coupe engine, medals granted
Devil’s tongue spiraling in ears of young agents,
Hard fought! Clouded Cowells picked up Book of Dreams
Ripped page of Love, evolving revolver
Squandered, point, aim, shoo. Entity Aims access
To Oceanside granted. Prepare for War.
00-4 said in a gravelly commanding voice,
Legion gravitas dissipating, next
Awaits. Cowells gait slow and militant.
Neon mist crisp emerald blades, residue like
Faint oasis dreams, crystalline waterfalls
Splash weary leafy seams, above seas collapse;
Foggy fingers clasp to new day's sanguine glove.
Crisp autumn air reveals trails of clotted char
Streaks, livid vinyl crackles popped coffin den,
Devils suited, cloaked, petrified by plasma
Cotton candy haze- Hellfires spin to HQ.
Colt clipped, one round chambered, boulevards
Freshly lit, Coupe consumes tar roads, Gaul Heights
Prowling, sirens scatter pedestrian
Wards, youth inhale rotten flesh stench, plasma
Churns, gurgling cotton candy vents, cherry
Swirls unwind tonight's chapter. Petrified
Breath batters Book of Dreams, fresh yellow pages
Glow elliptical, Eden returns to mind
Drink the witches brew, swirling raspberry
Chamber drools cold exhaust, nights cost sanity
Coupe swerves with turbo thrust, escape the plains;
Pink city bound, cruel bars claw tinted glass,
Aims inhales midnight smog, tar fuses flesh
Late teens talk tactics, plain fashion, laughs
Echo sidewalks, alleys, veins of the city
Report to HQ command- dropoff- engage…
Cowells brushes onyx curls, ladies lurk drunk;
Quick punch paces livened liver, quiver
Unleashes snake chain gun ballistics, strange
Dame lights red and blue skyline- minds eye trails…
Dips, scrolls; Doom is imminent, intimate
Encounters flower Aims tequila shots:
Call me love, late in my premonition;
Navy blue tears confide in war torn lands
I know where you lurk:
Devil's Den
New Disciples.
I claim Heaven as my Hell
Paradise supplied in layers
Digital players spike
Cherry peace.
Flee
Ether
Porous concrete driveway rumbled hoppy
Gravel like militant pulsar-eye youth
Arms ready, chamber NATO rounds, say your
Peace: Legion bound- MACH 10- light bends as
Emerald tendril embrace, she calls like bear mace,
Scars my palms in hurricane dismay, stares
At feeble lightning lips, striking cancerous
Skies; Kneel, sheath Legion sword swift, Council nigh;
Entity with countenance of midnight,
Sizzling coals pulse red optic highlights
Like bulging veins; connected to Gauless,
Dark Tower command, he knows the skies as
Flippant Zeus, commander in another
Realiti, shined onyx leather boots,
Buttery flakes of gold flare the toe box
Cloaked staggered dreads rest on winded cape, steps
Confide in perforated steel steps, yellow
Lights radiate rustic boots, dress pants flow
After each collision; atomic glaives
Return to gunner slots. Aims and Cowells
Stand facing Entity 00-4,
Nameless after THE FINAL MARCH to denote
New hierarchy, only Council members
Were deemed with their true Entity design,
A means of departure from Legion ranks
From disintegrated armies, flesh was
No longer enough, nor metal as a
Substitute; Rise agents, direct me to
OBJ TARANTULA's sanctuary.
Aims scurried, crossing his fingers like a
Knotted pendulum, Cowells in awe, this was
His first view of a Council member, they
All project their holographic visage
From Dark Tower GLASS, they had not walked earth
Since their victory over Old Regime
Operatives, rumors of machines of
Council design brushed agent circles, none
Truly cared only passion Eden fruits
Called implanted eyes, Hellfire bikes killed darkness.
War ready 00-4 shattered industrial door
Onyx boots smelting feeble sanctum mouth
Devil's calling, strange grenade scrambles
Surviving comms, pulsing veins with goose bumps
Rising as laser rays shocked eyes with stray
Whispers of underground chatter, 00-4 knew
Within microseconds what this tattered, home of
Unfurling overgrowth was: entrance to
The Underground; a means of escaping
Historia with ease, a supersonic
Bullet train rumbling freedom: a grand gesture,
A means of rebellion to Legion.
Entity 00-4 unveiled wavering cloak
Facing dirt devoured wall, once flowery
Lilacs sung against seas of cerulean
Ether, molotov ignited… realms flee.