Be still, my broken heart

In this life we will remain forever apart

Stolen in the blink of an eye

By a cheat and a thief, selling a lie

Forgive me for leaving you unprotected

For letting him slip in undetected

If you’re still, my broken heart

From this world we can depart

Made whole in a land of make believe

On a sun kissed cloud, new dreams we’ll weave

In another lifetime

You’re my loyal best friend

You’re my sole lover until our lives end

Together we conquer the world

Every whispered doubt left unheard

We cherish every milestone

We are what we call home

In this lifetime

I fought every battle for us

Until I found myself at the bitter end

Discarded I could not recover

Or ever fully trust another

I spent the rest of forever alone

Never feeling the tranquility of home

In any lifetime

We may not get to keep the one we need most

Left to wander alone lost with our ghosts

Time does not heal all wounds

Some cuts are just too deep

They’re ripped open

And left every day to weep

What did I do?

I fell in love

You promised me

Everything I never knew I wanted

I offered you

Everything you ever wanted

What did you do?

You fooled me

Into thinking you loved me

Took away

Everything I had inside of me

Gone is

Everything I wanted us to be

What did I do?

I gave you all of me

The joke then

Is all on me

Before I was broken, I was cheerful and I smiled.

Smiles that caused my eyes to crinkle and sparkle with delight.

Smiling feels unnatural now. I do it when it’s polite.

I found humor and laughed at life.

Happy tears that spilled from my eyes until my cheeks were wet.

Nothing is funny now that I’m eternally upset.

I had close friends.

Those who I still love and adore.

I’ve pushed them so far away that they can’t catch me anymore.

I loved myself and the way I lived my life.

I tried my best to be gentle, kind, and sweet.

Those virtues were beaten down and are now obsolete.

Before I was broken, I didn’t know you.

I cherished life, and I was a far better person then too.

Now my days are filled with tissues and tears and dreams of you.

While you loved me, I didn’t know it was all a lie.

Our future seemed magical and filled with love and hope.

I didn’t know you set me on an impossible slope.

When you broke me, you broke every piece of me.

Since I’ve been broken, I don’t know any other way to be.

So here I am. Broken. It’s the only thing I can see.

Avuncular

1: suggestive of an uncle especially in kindliness or

2: of or relating to an uncle

I love the combination of letters used to form the word and the way it sounds when spoken aloud.

When I come across a rare opportunity to use it, a little chill of delight travels up my spine.

Your head in my lap on a blanket outside

I close my eyes and tilt my head to the sky

A hint of freshly cut grass in the air

A kiss of sun on spots of skin left bare

Our little homemade family

A picturesque house near the sea

With a fence of white picket

And the comfort that comes with it

Blond baby girl wiggling her toes in the sandbox

Little boy building with big colored blocks

Fluffy golden puppies waiting for walks

We could’ve been so easy and free

If you’d have just chosen me

Puzzled is the only word I have to describe it.

People say it’s obvious, but I was shocked by the split.

You love me. You don’t love me. You loved me at the time.

What does that even mean?

What am I supposed to do with that information?

I deserve an explanation for your sudden revelation.

Instead, you’ve become a ghost.

Viciously haunting me in my dreams.

In a million different scenarios, stories and themes.

I wish I never knew you.

I’d give anything to have never met.

I’d gladly return everything we enjoyed.

Instead of being left utterly destroyed.