

Happy Mothers Day
In the gentle cradle of her arms,
A world of love and endless charms.
with whispers soft and tender grace,
She guides her child through time & space.
Her heart
a lighthouse in the dark,
Illuminates with purest light.
Through laughter shared and tears that fall,
She stands unwavering,
strong and tall.
A tapestry of dreams she weaves,
In every heartbeat,
every breath she breathes.
Motherhood
a sacred song
In every verse,
she belongs.
Clear Path
Who would’ve thought
The storm that broke me
has paved the way to my growth
Finally,
I’ve found my own rhythm and flow
Through the chaos and pain,
A strength was reborn,
In the depths of despair,
A new light was born.
The tempest that once shattered,
now breathes my name,
In its fierce, untamed clatter,
I found a new flame
You’ve ever felt numb?
without the drugs…
A feeling of time passing you by
and its going so fast
you can barely keep up
you look all around you
and everyone’s moved on
they’ve forgotten your loss
your hurt
the pain and trauma
they have expectations now
they want you to move on
“smile and be happy because this life is only one
appreciate what you have
and remember
everything happens for a reason
and what happened was meant to happen“
and you want to defend yourself
but the words don’t always come out
you’re so angry but the words never leave your mouth
The nerve of people thinking they know what you deserve
what happiness you’re meant to have
what hurt you can’t move on from
and you just stand there
quiet, defenseless… numb …
The one
You are my peace which have made me more sane
You are the sun who made my rainy days fade away
You are the strength that enhanced my potential in every right state
You are the reason why my doubts have parted ways
You are my backbone
a kind of shield
when ever I needed to be healed
You’ve isolated my darkness
Shining bright ’till my shadow drifted into haze
You’ve given me true happiness
Something I’ve never really obtained
Its something I wouldn’t want to replace
We are a team, we are one,
You are my everything
& above it all
The one !
All at once
Inhale
Exhale
Take a deep breath
Stormy days will come to an end
Remember God wouldn’t give you
nothing you couldn’t take
Sunshine is on its way
See the beauty through it all
It could’ve been worse
But why wasn’t it better?
It could’ve been worse
but it could’ve been better
Am I still grateful?
Should I still feel whole
Lately I’ve just been feeling empty
I’m at my lowest
and I’m trying my hardest to stay put
but if you medicate you’re defined to be crazy
If you seek council you seek attention
The way I see it
If you ask for help you’ve become a burden
either way you put it you’ll be judged…
writing this while Dion was still here
and rereading it I get all the same feels
10x worse, much more intense
I always said we will get through this
but I always imagined it with you by my side at the end of it all
a long life ahead of you
with much more happy days ahead
I just wanted a chance to make you happy
and now it is I
who have to make myself happy again
but how.. with what?
this damage can not be undone
this hurt can not be fought
I lost you and now I have to live
with the what if’s and could be
for the rest of my life
you‘re gone with no return
and now here I stand
My Golden Boy
Golden brown curls
big curved brown eyes
with so much expression beyond his sight
beautiful flared nose
Followed by his full pink lips
That sun kissed skin
and don’t get me started on his cute little fits
trying to fill our silent air
I just love the time we spend
You fill me up with so many emotions
You’ve filled all the void I once knew
When I wake up
I am anxious to get to you
and before I fall asleep
I pray for your homecoming to be soon
I love you with every cell in my body
every inch of my heart
If we could trade places
I promise I would,
from the very start
This has been no easy journey
but for as long as you’re here
This trip will all just be a worthy memory
A prayer will do
Attracting the positive will prove
Meditation should soothe
Distraction is how you’ll handle your truth
Trust me the voices say
It worked for me, trust me, I’m proof
It all sounds easy when you’re the one preaching
It all seems simple when you’re not the one bleeding
You can’t feel what you don’t know
Trust me, I’m proof!