Jesus, can You hear me? Give me answers as I pray.

This life has been dreary, it's getting worse by the day.

I've missed the point clearly, the world has made me it's prey.

Ready to leave, nearly, don't see a reason to stay.

God, are You listening? I'm still waiting for Your word.

This worlds done glistening, only evil is what lurks.

I find it sickening, why can't You just stop the hurt?

But I'll keep believing, even if my fate is cursed.

Lord, why won't You answer? You know I truly need You.

This world fuels the cancer, it eats away, turns me blue.

Satan hangs his banner, he took Earth from You, it's true.

Silent is Your manner, why? Don't You know this is Your cue.

Spirit, are You still here? My prayers still remain ignored.

You have left, I now fear, You have truly locked Your door.

The end is coming near! Wait, hold on, is that You, Lord?

Is that Your voice I hear? Your tone melts my angered core.

Father, take my prayer, after all this restless time.

Hope again, I now dare, this is finally Your sign.

I don't feel Satan's stare, the stars finally aligned.

I now know You are there, and I know, Lord, You're divine.

My world, it's desolate

My past, I covet it

My sacrosanct sweetheart

Wanna grieve, but I can't start

This loneliness a liar

Setting my world on fire

This situation's dire

Please get this through the wire

God, through heaven, please tell her

Thought she'd live 'til December

That darkness filled disease

Just tell her to come back, please

Does God get sad when I say I just can't love me?

Does God get mad when I give up my own being?

Am I not forsaken when I forsake myself?

Am I failing Him when I hurt my mental health?

God, won't You tell me someday, please?

Why can't these awful demons leave?

Filling my head with all these doubts,

Jesus, this is my final shout.

God, if not now, then in the end,

Tell me why Your Son would descend

For someone so flawed, such as me.

He saved my soul? Sounds like a dream.

Beyond my wildest, it sounds so childish.

Childish to believe, I guess I'm just naive.

I'm feeling so alone, insecure to my bones.

Getting close to Your gates, this really is my fate.

They say we were made in God's perfect image.

Does nobody else worry in this village

That we're pulled out of that image by Satan?

Or maybe it's too much, these expectations.

These basic Christians want me okay 'cause,

"If you can't love you, remember God does,"

They really all think that this is the cure,

But even with this, I stay insecure.

But even with this, my world is obscure.

'Cause, even in the back of their faith lined minds,

I can't seem to comprehend how they don't find,

God made all of us in the same perfect mold.

Makes me feel that same feeling of doubt tenfold.

Does He get sad when I cry all alone?

Or does His Expression remain like stone?

Will He carry my broken soul upstairs

When Satan kills me, as I feel Death's glare?

When this world ends me, with dagger-filled stares?

I gotta hope, and I gotta pray.

Awaiting Your heaven every day.

Yelling to the sky, infinity.

Talking to You, my holy trinity.

Let me walk your dog.

Because I'm not crazy.

I stalk you through this everlasting fog.

Because you're clueless while it's so hazy.

Let me be your friend.

Because I'm not crazy.

Trust me, I will follow you to the end.

Because, babe, you're just oh so amazing.

I'll ring your doorbell.

Because I'm not crazy.

This downpours inviting me in, how swell.

I can't make it home, no, I'm not lazy.

You can take my coat.

Because I'm not crazy.

If you could not tell, I'm completely stoked.

Now I guess it's time to tell you straightly.

You do not want me.

You say that I'm crazy.

Why can't you accept we were meant to be?

Don't you know you will regret this, baby?

Now I'll shove you down.

'Cause you make me crazy.

Sweetheart, can't you see there's no one around?

So, baby, I guess I'm crazy, maybe.

If I'm guilty

For killing your heart

Then I'm sorry

But you might as well

Get locked up with me

If you're thinking

That I had lured you

In that white van

Won't you remember

You waltzed right inside?

Can't you just stop

Playing the victim?

Don't betray me

You're my accomplice

Boy, don't you know it?

If I'm guilty

For killing your heart

Send me away

But I am certain

That I have been framed

Couldn't believe it

From the beginning

Just a fever dream

It fails to gleam

I was mistaken

Thought it was you

The only one for me

But now that we're done

I can finally see

This was all

Just a fraud

This whole thing

Left me mauled

We built our tower

Came down like the rain

We built our castle

Yet nobody reigns

Always was careful

Never in trouble

Not perfect, but free

What'd you do to me?

You were my forever

Never gave out a chance

To anybody but you

You set me in a trance

I wish it wasn't true

This was all

Just a fraud

Yet love

Is what it was called

I spent so much time

Watching my back

Yet I lost it all

When I ran into the wall

Something so transparent

If I had just paused

If I cleared my head

I would've seen our love's fraud

Instead I'm better off dead

You're leaving me feeling

A little heartbroken

A simple "goodnight"

Couldn't leave me more hopin'

You'd say something more

Yet that door was left open

My heart has been mourning

A painful past

I just want that torture

I must make it last

Long enough to tell you

And let you feel the wrath

Yes, the grief of my mind

You made a crack

Direct hit to my wall

I want to show you my back

But I won't let myself

Because we got off track

No, no, that boat

It never left the dock

So here I am

Fury stays under lock

I really can't understand

How you didn't just stop

Stop to look

Stop to see

What was stirring

Up in me

That simple "goodnight"

Didn't help me believe

Believe you were sorry

For making me upset

I said I forgave you

'Cause I thought I could forget

But you didn't do

What I did for you

No, No,

You didn't double check

So you're leaving me feeling

A little heartbroken

A simple "goodnight"

Couldn't leave me more hopin'

You'd say something more

Yet that door was left open

You said "goodnight"

In which you left me alone

You left the tension to me

You hung up the phone

In that simple "goodnight"

I felt our dialtone

The gentle trill had stopped

A relationship overthrown

Its like being forgotten

In a game of hide and seek

Its like being sad

But not wanting to seem weak

Its like being trapped

With nobody looking

Its like crying out

But nobody listening

Its being shy

But nobody cares

Its being suffocated

Like you cant breathe

You want to cry

But nobody cares

Its a hurting vent poem

Nobody will read