I've entered toy store 'Dolls', and that's the last thing I remember while regaining my consciousness. In vague distance Dolly Parton's song 'Dumb Blonde' from her first ever album 'Hello, I'm Dolly'... Go figure... I'm on the operating table and The Biggest Clown of them all is putting rainbow polka dot surgical gl...

Safe...

And nothing can stop my thoughts ...

I miss the beauty of the serene breathing ...

Madonna, tense lids and alveoli ...

Angel, where have I lost thee ...

half of the moon

half in sky

half time passed

as much of thorns 

lingered 

you are me

forgotten deed

hiding within

on the bottom of the bag

rumpled

whose summer dress?

independent

as never before

sleepy in the dawn

you are me

as without memory...

me you became 

fill me as a glass

to the top

and continue to flow

don't sip me

vainly

there might as well be tomorrow 

but i've never met it

with grains of sand I count the hours

like on open road I stand naked

there might as well be tomorrow?

every today i keep wondering

I don't have all that sand

covering my body with it's grains

there might as well be tomorrow

but today sells better

with mouth full of fine sand

I jump over the road every hour

there might as well be tomorrow

with every jump I'm one step closer

running out of breath

mouthfull makes me weight handful

my thoughts are not alone

they form a cloud with single breath

they climb high

and softly blow ...

my thoughts are not alone

they bind to the thread

that travels under the water

drops ringing like a bell ...

thoughts are not alone

they are warm and breathe with the sun

quietly falling like a feather

silently...

I forgot already a kind word

that you used to solve me gracefully

I forgot already those small, hidden glances

which followed me gently

I forgot already those warm and strong hands

which wholeheartedly defended me

Now i speak with this voice

I'm watching with this eyes

I'm building myself with my own hands

...power immeasurable

HE: YOU BREAK MY HEART

ME: CAN I KISS YOU BILLION TIMES TO START HEALING YOUR HEART?

HE: I AM FRAGILE, YOU SHOULD HAVE UNDERSTAND IT, IT MAY HELP

YOU MUST START TRYING

one gentle kiss

then one soft as feather

then one tinny kiss like drop of rain

one long kiss to make you forget everything

then one subtle kiss with looking straight in your eyes

that awakes you so easily

i've put myself in messy kissy situation now...

one kiss from tweety to her bad cat

and tweety would like at least one smallest kiss back

one hidden kiss from princess to her prince

one kiss from heart to heart

i've been unfair my love

you deserve all the kisses i could ever give

i'm writing a poem of kisses for you

and i hope to get them back

therefor...

one wishful kiss for my desire

one silly kiss from silly in love

and as first promise came

i wished every kiss to last more

one kiss as long as we can hold our breaths

one short just to catch our hands

in that mess of love and lovers kisses

for you my beloved one messy kiss

one sensual as summer breeze

one twisted as first lovers touch

and what can secret kiss bring

but blush on pearl white cheeks

so would you rather have one kiss

and than wait for ten thousand more

or you're the type of 10 kisses per second

and never want to stop that row... 

whose wing was it

whose wing covered my tired body

one small white feather

tickled my nose

i almost felt you near

whose breath i felt

whose breath touched my painful body

one small soft breeze

covered my skin

i almost felt you here

whose tear was it

whose tear fell on my restless body

one small innocent naked tear

on my open palm

i almost felt you near

it was you my angel

  my far away love

    i felt your scent

      from above

it was you my angel

  my far away love

    you left me peaceful

      your white dove