Hollow Tree
When am I gonna learn?
All I do is hide and run
I’ve made so many mistakes
Not once, not twice, but feels like a million takes
At a standstill, hourglass filled with frozen mist
Ain’t a metamorphosis
Losing grip, can’t get a hold of this
Scene by scene with the same rollercoaster twist
At the bottom of an avalanche
Confusion led my soul down a deserted path
Shout out to the tribute to my past
That everlasting love never lasts
Breaking free from my shadow, striding through shattered glass
Walk of shame, what have I accomplished?
Can’t be tamed, walking side by side with my mirrored accomplice
Stepped off for a minute, now I’m back on this
No I can’t quit
Give me just one more hit
Maybe this time it’ll feel right
One more high
I have to know what it feels like
Again and again till there’s nothing left inside
Looking backwards for an escape, but there’s nowhere left to hide
I got to face it now
I’m shaking my knees
Trying to get up somehow
Got to stand on my feet
I’m a hollow tree
Digging my roots deep beneath
Parasite
All I ever wanted was your happiness
Guess it hurts knowing it won’t be with me
Who would’ve thought that happily ever after would be our worst enemy
The struggle to keep fantasizing in this reality
But the truth hits hard
The meaning of life, our path, our purpose is what’s tearing us apart
Tore right down the middle of our hearts
Painted on a canvas by a delusional start
Our story embodied a devastating piece of art
It hurts me, I don’t want to let you go
But I cannot see you hurt anymore
I’ve been selfish with my feelings
I’ve been waiting, I’ve been wanting, I’ve been needing
I’ve been on the floor kneeling and bleeding
I’ve only ever prayed for someone like you to walk into my world
You walked in, I couldn’t imagine my life without you
My prayers were answered, you became my world
We became one, now split into two
No matter how much I love you
No matter how much I want to marry you
I have to face the truth
I have to force myself
I have to get over you
I’m the one trying to hold you back
I’m the one you wish you never crossed paths
With,
Making you feel all these emotions you wished you hadn’t
I’m fighting these feelings now
Trying to get these demons out
Trying to hide behind the mirror
We are one, but I’m trying to get you to see much clearer
That 20/20 vision
Seeing past your own reflection
Greener on the other side, what your eyes have been missing
Deepest oceans in my eyes, I’ve just been missing you
Painted in black and white, not in coloured hue
The way I am is not what you wanted
I’ll never change myself, all our options have been exhausted
Standing away from you, my patience is weighted
Fall out of love with me, my river is tainted
Effortless connection with the blessings of Satan
Poisonous venom without an antidote
Save yourself now, we are already a sinking boat
Don’t let me linger around like a ghost
Racing back and forth with putting that ring on my finger
Parasite acting as the host
Four Walls
Get me out of here
I want to get out of here
I want to go somewhere where it’s clear
Blue skies
Beach vibes
Dark shades
Red lips
Peaches
No reason to fly
Afraid of heights
Way too good to be true
Way too real to be false
My past had me searching for those faults
Aren’t we all looking for what would remind us of home or how home should be
Defined by those four walls in our minds we weave
Trust and belief
Twists and turns made us believe
Finding that bittersweet release
Wanting to break free
The heart mimics our complex labyrinth
Conditioned mechanism of endless refinement
Suppressing emotions into solitary confinement
Blindly paints perfection on a virtual canvas
Let go of what doesn’t exist
To find a temporary fix
Sweet apple I tried to restrict
But, I’m hypnotized
Mesmerized
Not health conscious, when my health was on the line
Life froze in time
Lifeline not in reach
Under a sheet of ice, I’m banging, trying to breach
Scrunching the pain
Building my strength
Lost in the sea of distorted limbo
I’ve become my own superhero
Negativity
Surrounded by all this negativity
All we talk about are problems, where’s the serenity
For our world, this has become a normality
That’s why we bleed, not heal reality
Everyone is getting diagnosed with anxiety
Why do we overwork ourselves
Go through this repetitive hell
End up in our respective cell
Like cattle we respond with our receptive bell
Hello...hello I cannot hear you, I think the reception is dead
Don’t want to argue no more, your perception I dread
‘Change for the better’, that’s one lucid dream that helps us sleep in our pendulum beds
Random Hit of Anxiety
My hands wrapped around my stomach
Clenching onto that heavy breath
Trying not to swallow, tight neck
What is this feeling?
This is new
Feeding onto my darkened hue
Poisoning my soul
Spiraling down a funneled hole
Feeling half of a whole
Never do I want to feel this feeling again
Fetus position, legs up bent
Repeating the same song in my head
She refuses to leave, she refuses to end.
Virtually Deleted
Maybe there is a possibility that you could virtually disappear from his / her life
Your text messages
Your pictures
Your social media websites and apps
Perhaps even your phone number
All virtually deleted
But, if they care
One place which may be the hardest
Sometimes even impossible to erase you from
Is the heart