Today

I walked on a beach

And a path on a cliff.

I smiled at the sun

And the sun smiled back,

Shining brightly

With warmth.

And I thought of you

And your beauty.

I'm in a beautiful place.

But without you.

The beauty is still here

But without you, I need

The sun and the sand

And the sea

To fill the void.

For when you are here

I am complete.

And the beauty is within.

Even if the world shower,

I will stay

Yes lay beside you and would say

"Don't run away, don't run away".

Face up the world

Cry for the vain

And laugh and say

I gain it again, I gain it again.

Even if the light shades

I will stay ;

Hold your hands

and take you across the pain.

Stars twinkle

and glitters in flame.

You will shine

I know, you will make you fine.

(This poem is based on two songs specifically " Next to you" By Chris Brown and "Hall of fame" By The Script)

I want my face resting restless against your clavicle

I want to feel your breath leave slow and shallow at the edges of sleep

I want your hand resting restless on my hip and our fingers curled around each other

I want sleep to come upon me, intoxicating

I want sleep to smother me in you

I want sleep to wrap us both, calm

I want your frame to swallow my restless restlessness and wake with you by my side

Often, I wonder

Why do I give up so much of my self,

Sacrifice happiness just within reach,

All for others

Deep down, I know most

Will never return it,

My efforts brushed aside,

Merely a girl that was once there

I spurn myself, doubt my heart,

Submerge into crushing despair,

All for others

Deep down, I know most

Will not remember it,

My struggles forgotten with time,

Merely a girl that was once there

I slice into my own skin,

Crimson blood gushing forth,

Staining the pure white of my clothes,

All for others

Deep down, I know most

Will not care,

My offerings drained away,

Merely a girl that was once there

My Darling,

Perhaps you’d be willing to teach me the spell you’ve cast on my heart, so I could make you feel the way I do? The gentle glide of your fingertips along my spine raises bumps on my thighs; your lips always seem to linger so close to mine. I am haunted by you, but possession isn’t something to fear anymore. The ghost of your body against mine drives me to insanity, yet I always arrive unscathed; I am completely and totally whole. You are a gusting breeze pushing me forward; the comforting embrace of a familiar scent leading to an unknown, yet knowingly perfect destination. In the voices of strangers I hear you call; your bellows forever echoing through my skull. Perhaps a priest could help me? But I don’t want any help, thank you, sir. Envelop me in your heat; consume me with your gaze. Whatever incantations you’ve cast have shot up my veins and saturated my blood, with you. Maybe I’m an addict? But since when does withdrawal make everything so painfully and beautifully clear? I am complete in your love. I am full, and I am at rest in your arms. Your's is a spirit I will happily house for the rest of eternity. Come home sweetness. What should we have for dinner?

Come with me

I have watched you suffer

at the hands of those you thought

were most dear.

You have battled this war too long,

wasting your time on people

who don’t care about you.

who won’t notice when you’re gone.

You can see them whispering to each other and looking at you

chuckling

about you

You have suffered enough, my love.

Come with me,

and your suffering will end.

The pain inside your soul will cease,

the endless turmoil

twisting and churning

driving a knife into your heart

and turning it

round and round

and round.

Those sleepless nights will not be so sleepless.

Those terrible memories

of people shoving you to the ground

parents arguing

close friends turning their backs on you,

it all will end.

Come with me,

and I will love you

in death

Till the end.

At last, the moment I enjoy most.

Standing before him

I slip down my g-string

Bending forward slightly to get it below my knees

I love this part as I know it shows off my tits.

Then I let it fall to the ground and step out of it.

Naked and free.

He caresses my body with his eyes and smiles.

I always look forward to this final exposure,

I feel like a cool breeze blows over me

As I set myself free

Before this stranger.

Two opposite exhilarating

Emotions -

I’m free

And I’m such a slut!

I love what has gone before

And what will come next.

But the losing of this final garment is always the best part

Of every Friday night.