Love story nobody wants to hear
The glow from the screen illuminates my room as the same story line is played out for the millionth time. The girl will get kissed by the boy and he loves her so fiercely that neither of them will ever let go. This is for the girls who ask him to let go.
This is for the girls who waited so long and wanted so much that they said yes to whoever gave them attention, even if they weren't sure. This is for the girls who know what it's like to see all your friends get picked and never get noticed. This is for the girls who don't know what to do when they do get noticed and then end up with a man who will never know that to be beautiful, you must also be free. Because, how could he cage a lion? How could he unearth a blossoming flower, only to put it in a pot and keep it away from sunshine?
To the girls who said yes, even when they wanted to say no: You were always good enough before him and you will be even better after him, even when people yell and call you "slut", "whore", or any other untrue name. You were never one to be tied down and there is no reason to start now. A hummingbird flutters it's wings so fast just so it can stay in the air and you are no different. You will never stay still, always unattainable and always worth it. Don't let anybody make you feel bad for fighting to stay above ground.
Note to self
I know it's hard and you never feel happy. I know it's hard and some days you don't know why you're here. I know it's hard and all you do is cry. I know it's hard and you hate yourself and anyone that tries to help. I know it's hard an the sadness feels like ink on your skin like oil on water and that feeling will never go away. I know it's hard and that you don't feel like you're inside of you're body, that won't go away either.
Remember this: you have never know weak. You have never known coward, you have always been storm hellbent on destruction. You have always been lioness roaring at anything too close. You have always been soft hugs and fierce love. That won't go away. You have always been enough. You have always been strong. And you always will be.