I sat at the edge of the bare mattress - the sheets peeling off with the recent neglect. Out of the window, I saw the gray clouds swirl into infinity as the wind rattled the twigs of the dying trees. The sky seemed to be mourning. Death. Death was all I could think about, and how everything around me was coming to a halt. How the signs of life in the distance were whimpering - desperately trying to hold on to life. I was small: smaller than I have ever felt before. The massive vacuum that we float in, it seems me as perhaps small than a speck of dust. Nature’s fury could erase my existence, and there would soon be a time where no other person would remember that I did exist. So now I sit here, and wonder: how much of my life do I actually control? How much of your life do you actually control?

We have unplugged ourselves,

Islands in our glory,

Etiquette all forgotten,

Consumed by disrespect.

Siddiqui

The grey skies have cleared,

And I can now feel the

Warmth of the golden rays

On my cold skin.

It takes time to heal but

There is bliss after every

Hardship.

Siddiqui

Aimlessly gazing out through

A window of thoughts,

The horizon lines every treasure

But the grills are too strong.

Siddiqui

The ridges of your wounds

Will never mimic

The depth of your love.

The tears that you shed

Cannot make fertile

A barren heart.

Siddiqui

There are times when

Everything you want

Is all to be offered,

But you choose not

For the sanctity

Of your love.

Siddiqui

Morning for me are

Always on edge -

Almost like walking

On eggshells:

I always have my

Nerves wrecked

Wondering what kind

Of day it will be.

Siddiqui

And then I wake up

And the bliss is long gone

And every breath is laboured

And the mind is fogged -

So much for clarity.

Siddiqui

How could we forget,

When even the ocean

Remembers the taste

Of our woven lips?

Siddiqui

Memories, for me, are stringed

Carefully on to threads

And coiled and wrapped

And packed into tiny boxes

By the walls of my head;

I can't ever let them go.

Siddiqui