Horns breeze frost blue melodies,

Thin air like crackling ice,

One move breaks past my weary state, Second step wounds with winter’s claws.

All I know is done,

Could months be enough to seal

Temple doors burdened by

Merciless fatalities?

Far off my pen awaits in

Polar hell, i wrote from a cliff

Of despair too wretched to bear,

I face the dagger wielding arctic

Once more with a legion behind me,

Yet even then the blizzard wars on, Nothing seems clear...

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Puddles from my pad and clear the iced Tears teasing thoughts

From months alone.

No more uncertainty?

A path unveiled?

It could not be true, nothing

Could ever be so simple!

Nothing!

All this is a sham

I cannot return to plain crunching

Terrain where the ocean is a pure haunting abyss;

A mouth to the Devil, that corporeal black hole of lies....

One breath assured before death,

Another if all remains

Thereafter each second is a guarantee or so I believe.

My wandering mind growls

In hopes of sleep, walls fade and fear Dissipates, each distortion goes off

To my Polar hell

Awaiting winter’s Devilish claws to drag My conscience toward a Dark blue void.

To think of death

when earthquakes tremor toward

sleeping days-

How long can you lie awake?

To wallow at worn defeat

as clouds depart and azure floods

wavering melancholy-

Where might you run when all else fails?

To think of death

at the precipice of joy-

When will you let this fear settle?

~ ...No hard work and effort is required from man! It doesn't matter if people call you lazy. If you achieve something in this situation and do good to people, it is a great happiness... ~

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~ ...No one is free from sin. But that doesn’t stop you from trying to be an angel... ~

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~ ...There is no idealism. Believe! It's true! Perfection exists only in books. No one is great. Those who seem successful to you are actually like you. Only they know how to stop in time... ~

29.04.2020

00:51

#Sherzod

Is it just me or does love feel so unfamiliar and free, it’s not foreign but it’s written in a language i have to unweave from my heart to my head, it’s written in silent words and hints and feelings that I tangle with in my bed, when I think about you, I think about love, I feel silly, it’s not enough that I’ve fallen, no, I’ve tumbled and tripped and dipped into your arms and your lips enough to lose myself, enough to need help when it’s finally time to rise. I’m a fool, this love thing does terrible things to my reason, I try to resolve for myself, but my first thought is pleasing you, you first, I feel as you do and if you hurt, I got the pain, I have the weight, whatever you hold, I’ll take, without thinking, what is love, is this love, I don’t know if I am strong enough, for all of this chaos

Name: Cellena "Deoxy" Diene

Description: Professional DNA-themed hero with ability to transform her cells into parts of different organisms (ex: turn muscle on her back into a pair of wings, make her arm into a claw or tentacles), fears accidentally turning her entire body into something else or not being able to change back.

Songs:

- Not Human (elegant slims)

- Fall Away (Twenty One Pilots)

- Loud Magic (Foreign Air)

- Gasoline (Halsey)

- The Overpass (Panic! At The Disco)

Name: "Char-"Isma Yousefi

Description: Chaotic teenage villain in a posh suit with square glasses, has ability to intimidate anyone any claimed powers (ex: can wear orange and say she has fire-themed powers, thus has a placebo effect on victims), has jack-of-all-trades talents such as "mind-reading" deduction and "super dexterity" card-throwing used to further convince people.

Songs:

- Blame It On The Kids (AViVA)

- Choke (IDKHow)

- Style (Foster The People)

- Never (Mag.Lo)

- Destruction (Joywave)

Name: "Guillo-"Tina Boucher (Given name)

Description: Experimental cyborg villain with a shaved head and silver razor-shaped bangs, has blades built into their steel bones that can push out but leave scars on regenerative skin, also called the "Slice-and-Dice Skater" for blades on feet that they have used to fight on frozen surfaces.

Songs:

- Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea (Fall Out Boy)

- Test & Recognize (Seekae)

- Ah bah d'accord (Juniore)

- Noise Pollution (Portugal The Man)

- Voicemail (Poppy)

This is a song that I wrote when I was just beginning to emerge from a particularly debilitating, months-long depression. For me, this was the first one that lasted this long and was this severe.

Today I looked outside my window

And let the light come streaming in.

I realized that I'd forgotten

How it felt upon my skin.

So I decided to take a walk

To pretend that I was really me.

Like I had never simply checked out,

And now I needed to rejoin society.

The wind was biting on my face

And I realized somehow the seasons had changed.

I didn't know how much time had passed

Or how to explain how it had gone both so slow and so fast.

I made my way back home

I felt so drained just from being in the world.

I picked up my guitar

And for the first time in a while a piece of me unfurled.

#lyrics

It seeps out of her pores. The thick, black tar. Her joints ache unable to move from the sludge that encases her body.

The pulse in her wrist builds up. Every heartbeat, asking to be released. To relieve the pressure. Anything to help relieve the pressure. Sleep barricades itself behind her eyes. Every second, every minute, every hour a fight to stay awake. And when it becomes too much she succumbs to the sweet embrace of the bed like that of a lover.

Tears spill heavily through eyelashes as she stares empty eyed at nothing. There is no reason to cry.

Every day is a fight. Rationally there is nothing to be upset about. Yet the depression demon is there. Fighting like hell. Telling her she’s worthless. Telling her the world is better without her. Feeding her lies. And they’re winning. Every day the rational side gives in just a little more because what is the fucking point of all of this. In the end does it even fucking matter. No one will care. No one will remember. No one remembers now. Why continue to suffer?

@JaneJane