She just stood there...

watching as you fell.

While I blindly, wholeheartedly gave you my hand.

Not realizing,

You prefer the pain.

MsD-7/29/2021

As I "Put on my face"

I stare into my reflection

Wondering why I hide away

The most beautiful parts of me...

Written by: Michele S Del Russi

January 6th 2020

“I was silenced for far too long

Always did what I was told

The repercussions,

When I got it wrong

I swear I didn’t know.

It started out with a few mean looks

Then you’d scream and yell

You’d punch the walls &

Then yourself

Tell me to “Go to hell!”

Then somehow convince me

That I was the one who’s wrong

That wasn’t what you said

How long must this go on?

“You stupid bitch!

Get it right!

Use your fucking head!”

Every time I’d hear those words

I’d wish that I was dead.

Next onto your favorite phrase

“You stupid fucking cunt!”

How could you say these things to me

When you said I was the one?

For years and years, I took it all

The late nights, the girls, the hate

You constantly fucked with my head

Making me feel like,

A big fucking mistake.”

Written by: Michele S Del Russi

10/11/2021

Do you see the mended heart I put back

Together myself?

It may looked scarred and broken,

But I assure you it still works.

It just needs a little love <3

From you.

Written by Michele Del Russi

I feel trapped

Trapped in my head

And once in awhile, “I” show up...

The “Real” me.

But it’s short lived and comes rarely.

Written by Michele S Del Russi

Written by Michele S Del

Mental health poet

Thank you for reading

Too many times

She cried alone

She always had to hide

Falling deep

Into the unknown

She barely stayed alive

She lost herself

A long time ago

But kept it all inside

Now it’s too late

It’s starting to show

Her broken soul that died

Written by Michele S Del Russi

5/10/19-7/12/19

Journal entry and poem

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Mental Health Poet

Lost in her mind

She can’t seem to find,

The answers.

Her soul

Is trapped in a hole

Too deep to know how to climb out.

She’s dying...

Just trying,

To find her way out.

She screamed to the trees, the birds, and the bees!

Trying to learn how to see again.

She feels lost...

So lost...

She’s tired of playing pretend.

Written by Michele Del Russi

Dear Dad,

My heart is sad.

I found out the other day,

That you had passed away.

I wish I could give you one last hug.

I miss you and your love.

I feel lost knowing you aren’t around.

I miss your voice and the way that it sounds.

I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye.

Now you are in heaven, painting the sky.

I know one day we’ll meet again.

I’ll impatiently wait, until then.

For now all I can do, is write you this letter.

Please know that I’ll love you, forever and ever.

Dear Dad,

My heart is sad.

Dedicated to my amazing and talented Dad, Sam Del Russi. You are always in my heart. I love you Dad. Painting above was by him.

Written by Michele Del Russi

Your loving Daughter.