Nothing worth doing is easy.
Sometimes I like to look at the sky and think
Think about how everything seems to shrink
Every problem seems like an overthought thought.
I have those alot....
Maybe it's because I have nothing to do,or maybe I'm not overthinking and I'm right.
I'm never sure, but then I look at the stars and rub my eyes only to look around surprised.
Seeing things I never thought to see.
Like that tiny bumble bee!
I also notice how blind I once was.
Angry at the tiniest things.
Like a child who couldn't get that candy.
I wonder why you still stay.
Why do you stay?
Why do I stay?
These thoughts crash my brain like a sugar crash does after that rush.
Now I'm tired, and I'm sad, I just wanna curl up in my bed and go to sleep.
Not forever, I think that scares me more than seeing my old artwork.
Even if I'm tired I still have to get up.
I have to tell myself.
"Get up! You got things to do!"
My body feels like bricks my mind clouded with tons of thoughts I'd rather not think.
Maybe being a kid isn't as bad as I thought it was.
Even so I still have to get up and make these eluding thoughts shrink.
Even if those ones escape there's a 100 more, all of them about you.
I miss you.
My good friend...
Still gotta get up and work, gotta plan, and draw, gotta smile, and be angry.
It's so hard to be human it's so hard to wake up and even pick myself up but even so I gotta work.
Cause in the end it will be worth it, to see you in the end.
I will see you and I'll be happy.
Happy one again.
Not like I'm not happy now,
But I'm greedy and want to be happer.
It'll still be hard...
But nothing worth doing is easy.
It's going to be hard.
Daunting, but once you start it gets easier.
You just need to start somewhere