From my start to gods end

Love was all my soul craved

Through the years my light has dimmed

I have found that this game is very hard to win

At first sight I felt I met my beautiful twin, my best friend

But, just like that you were gone

I walked through life in reverse searching for your light

Little by little my needs and wants drowned in darkness

Left with fading memory’s of what you said

Just then I felt your warm touch on my cheeks

Savoring this feeling that I missed so much

I reach out my hands to touch your heart

I felt nothing but the breeze from the storm clouds rolling in

The rain covered tears that slowly kiss my cheeks, your gone again

My voice became meek as I lowered my head

Navigating this world without you, I can’t win

Not really sure if this is a game I want to be in

Just like before you showed up with blue tulips, stopping my wars

This time you can feel my eye’s are no longer yours

My innocence begging you to stay, please don’t take your love away

Yet, my lips curse you setting your frame ablaze

You smile while turning to dust taking with you my love and trust

Left alone, blinded and broken in the dark

I had a long honest conversation with my heart

Rebuilding my life I got to meet the real me

I learned that I didn’t need love to save me

Now I’m remembering that you’ve always been there for me

I just needed to love me in order to see

That the unconditional love I craved was always inside of me

TAS Legacy

Thunderous words grabs and holds my attention

Unrelearning all the lessons you mention

Playing my part to fix my own broken dreams

A sound track for life, sewing strength at my seams

Clouds of unseen demons hiding in plain sight

All eyes on me, yet they still don’t see the real heartz of men

As you grew and learned the world was full of unfounded hate

Made to be a man while stuck in a fixed game by fate

Asked to be perfect, pain reminds us that we’re human

Refusing the pattern by creating your own lane

Unaware of how many hearts we’re flowing through your veins

Me against the world fighting temptation, yet they remain the same

Shining many lights on our troubles and fears

Helping those in need thrive without cheers

At an age when it was hard to survive

Keeping people alive with ink and soulful eyes

Unique in every way like the ocean’s tides

Remember me, feeling every heart kissed line

I understand, when looking at Life through my eyes

Like the sun in the sky, I still love your unrepeatable spark

Just like a shooting star, you left a living mark

No matter the distance, time gone by and changes that took place

I can still feel your words dancing with my thoughts

Your words soothe a trial of broken hearts

A ghost in the dark not many could see

I will always appreciate the parts you set free

Your soul tie reignited a blazing battlefield of fire in me

Unsure and at war with if I really want the world to see

As I rest my pen near the rose that grew from concrete

I will continue to celebrate you by being a better me

My eyes bloodshot red as my thoughts begin to spin

My heart skips a beat, as I start to feel weak

I kiss my fingers to savor his sweet caramel flavor

As sweet honey drips down my thick thighs, my hunger increases

Up against the wall your hands play my harp

Our lips collide while I fall in slow motion

My temperatures rising, as my skin begins to pink

While my body starts to shake and my voice becomes meek

Your hands begin to explore all the adventures connecting these hips

While your with plays in this snow covered peak

Your lips tasting the nape of my neck

Why do I feel cold, heart broken, blinded and torn apart

My blood begins to hurt as my energy begins to drain

My chest starts to tighten as my soul starts to pack

Feeling sharp pains dancing within my bones

As I’m finding it hard to breathe, I feel something in my back

I open my eyes to get a better view

Only to finally notice something strange about you

Your eyes still hypnotic yet, full of fear, love, envy and lust

Your lips a deep rooted red, still sweet like honey

All I feel is pain when I reach out for you

Your eyes all a glow, but you don’t move

Placing my hands on my chest and neck, but it’s not the same

Lifting my bloody hands into my view

My heart is telling my mind ‘you’re deranged’ this can’t be true

Finally realizing what you are

Yet, I’m yearning for more to take away this pain, to forget again

As my body starts shaking off your venomous kiss

I no longer see your shadow, yet you’re holding me tight

I can hear your hissing, I can feel your rattling

Remembering every battle you shed your skin to win

As I watched my blood drip from your lips, you smile

Then plant one last deadly coded kiss

Your eye’s tell me story’s

That you won’t allow your heart to feel

Your soul tells me secrets

That you won’t allow your heart to speak

Your scars show me moments

That your mind can’t bare to face

Your lips kiss your words with fire

That only a coded heart can taste

Time and time again you continue to try

Yet, people still played with your heart

Seeing the light flow from your eyes each time

I feel your essence slowly dyeing

Watching you lock yourself away in order to survive

Watching the world tear you apart, my soul cry’s

My love, I’m covering you in is unconditional and free

I’m not perfect, this I need you to see

Here I am baring my soul to set your pain free

I’m asking you to let me walk beside you

Asking you to allow me to place my hands on your heart

To heal you from within, to rebuild your trust

To take away your pain while returning the light to your eyes

To returning the happiness that overflowed when you smiled

You are so guarded, that you can’t see

That our hearts are the same, so I’m sacrificing mine to set you free

All I’m asking is that you take a chance on me

Believe what you feel, then you’ll know you can trust me

I’ve been here from the beginning

So I truly understand your pain

Your footsteps will continue to fade

Until you heal and walk with love again

So again, I ask you

Take your love off safety

Let me show you that

You are safe with me

I come to life when you look at me

Sitting here with you my heart begging me to speak my truth

My words are silenced by the fear of losing you

You hypnotize me with just a glance

I see the beauty of the world in your eyes

Just the anticipation of your touch, I get chills

When you speak, I'm a willing student

Your passion for life puts everything at a stand still

When you smile, I breathe in slow motion

The energy you give makes me forget my name

Being in your presence melts my pain away

My belief in love is restored when you look at me

When you look at me I want to bear my soul to you,

If only you knew but, I can't, I can’t

Wishing we could come to life together

I've seen our whole future in your eyes

Wanting to take you to a place where we become one

Your eyes penetrate my hearts guards like targeted bullet

One wink from you and my heart opens unconditionally for you

Just one look from you and I find me

I feel as if my skin has been kissed by the sun when you look at me

My heart skips a beat every time you say my name

I can give you all your hearts desires and more

If only I give myself permission to just be free

But my fear of losing you is too strong

So these feelings will never see the light of day

Lovingly I will continue to play my part

But, I see you still don't know the true power behind your

Beautiful Brown Eye's

You are my guiding light

From the melanin god gifted upon you

To the bruises embedded in your heart

From the sin engraved in your soul

To your strength that keeps us from falling apart

You are loved

You are my melody

From the sway in my hips

To my slow motion walk you created

From the steep curves you love to explore

To the powerful arch in my back that hypnotizes you

Hold your head high, you are loved

You are my heart

From the first breath I took

To my last exhale, you’ve favored my love

From your hands that built this world

To your arms that cradle me tight

Don’t give up, you are loved

You are my strength

From the very beginning you walked right beside me

To the continuing love you give, when there should be none left

From the light in your eye’s, even when the world goes dark

To me being a glowing reflection of you

Stand tall, you are loved

You are my passion

You were born to this world to be one of a kind

I open my heart to you to take away your pain

I bore your youth to grow a better version of us

I will carry your vision when it becomes to heavy for you to bear

I will protect your heart at all cost, even from me

Keep the faith, you are loved

You are my soul

We submit to our god with love together

Our exchange of energy lives in the past, present and the future

Because of you I see the world in a different light

They fear what you were designed to be

They tried to destroy you, but couldn’t,

so they imitated you because you are greatness by design

Time and time again I will alway chose you

Your aura was taken saving us

Life for you has always been hard

But, life without you would be hell

I will always be here to lessen the blows

And give you unconditional love, support and understanding

Fix Your Crown, You Are LOVE

The trapped me

I’m trapped in a body that has many versions of me

Their is She, Her, I and Me, plus 3

People never truly understand how the world is for me

There’s a Constant war for control over me

I am the strongest for now, you see

No matter how hard I fight

She won’t let me be

Yet, her vision is not stronger than me

I don’t trust who she’s going to be

Unsure if I’m still me

When I look in the mirror, it’s her reflection I see

When she takes over I drown in misery

Yet, when I return I’m unsure if it’s truly me

I could just be an illusion, they like to play games with me

Until I start to feel what she’s done to me

I can’t allow her to take control over me

I can feel what she truly wants to be

Can my friends tell when it’s not really me

Can my coworkers see when there’s something wrong with me

Can my husband feel the difference when he kisses me

Or is her behaviors and jesters just like me

Do my kids know I see and love them with every ounce of me

And that I’m sorry because they could be just like me

How can anyone tell if it’s truly me

When I’m not sure who I really see

Or am I already just the me everybody needs me to be

Most have never seen the real me

So they don’t know if it’s she, her, I or me that they see

I created her to protect me

from all who tried to destroy me, including me

She refuses to stay in the dark

I tried restraining her but she always gets free

If I don’t let her take over

she’s promised to make me destroy me

No, no, no, Stop, stop

This can’t be

Now that I’m free let’s see

Can you tell which one is me

To melt into his arms as if to be his pillow

Supportive, Comforting and soft to the touch

To ride upon life’s waves of fear, love, lust and lost

To live a life of solitude upon will not force

To willingly be so far away

Yet, to be so close to the heart, mind and soul

To reflect yourself in the tears that fall broken and out of order

With all separate emotional values, respect and understanding

You feel it as real and powerful as the pull of the moon

While you breath in the sun

As deadly as a hard winter’s night breeze

As swift and cold as a lover with no vision

As real as the truthful shine from the stars

As real as you and me

For what it leaves in use all

To be loved in the moments after death

Faithful in the long ago

Rejected in the present

And feared in the future

We call this life at its best

With eyes like fire dancing in summer time

The color of caramel dipped in the essence of god

Your visions from gold, love driven and focused

When you see me, I can taste desire

Your mind measures the world at a glance

Born to this world as Le Penseur with loving growth

The beautiful views you project are healing

Yet, you still make time to dream of me

Sculpted by the goddess of love

Oh, when you smile, it’s mesmerizing

I’m forced to breathe deep, yet slowly

Tulips as soft as silk, they pull me in every time

The warm caress of your mannish words cuff me

As you passionately kiss every line

Sweet like honey, my second favorite taste

He radiates this brilliantly beautiful light from his core

Like a moth to a flame, I can’t stay away

Your love pulls me in like my grandmother’s hug

You understand before I speak, you taught me how to show love

You take me to a place you made just for me

Your core gives more then it receives

I now know how to give you my love unconditionally

Just the thought of your touch, I exhale deeply

Your hands have creative strength with scares

They create from intelligence and love

They can destroy, you only choose to build

Yet, those manicured hands sensually grip my neck

With desire, respect and admiration with love

Do you ever think of me

The love that couldn’t be

My touch you can’t see

This time it set me free

With all the love I gave to you

I melted when you came near

But, this you didn’t see

Blinded by the fantasy

Hurt by reality

Enchanted by the lie’s

Suffocating from my words

You said I didn’t love you

You said I didn’t show you love

You said that I didn’t care

Little did you see

That I was always fair to me

I loved you with a heart that was untouched

I caressed you with hands that held no sin

I heard you with ears that no doubt knows no doubt

I kissed you with lips that never cried wolf

I saw you with eye’s that created man

In the end you didn’t see the kingdom I created for us

A safe haven just for you and me

Thinking back on what could’ve been

Makes me shed tear

Just to know I was blinded by love

Written by

B.M.S