La petite mort
Fingers rolling down her cheeks flowing smoother than a mid summer stream rushing through her mounds of flesh her body is like walking through an uncharted forest excitingly beautiful but dangerous for one wrong move can be disastrous feeling my way through her jungle I reach a clearing the sky’s open up and I take in her cool breeze destination reached i dive into her refreshing waters as her legs wrap around my face paradise has found me la petite mort.
Her name tears at the linings of my heart,
She crawls into my mind and plants herself like a unknown seedling
Muttering my own death chant I say her name
rebirth has chosen only a few and with mine I will bloom
because she has planted within me a soul
a conviction no trial can appeal
her love has claimed me and I will not ignore faith
for even a love that’s fleeting is better than a love never had but when one finds his meaning that love will never be bad.
Letter of lost love
I miss you,
When your gone time seems to quickly fade away,
when your around the wind stops and the trees stand still like there hoping for some random summer rain,
The sent of your musky sweet sweat lingers on my pillow like ripening strawberries in a soft wind at the end of the spring months as the first wave of summer heat rolls in.
Capturing my love with a net of beauty like a moth to a candle that has gotten to close to its flames, I am deathly ill for your praise and disdain as I wallow and weep forever in the waste land of your forgotten memories hoping one day you’ll remember me.
Tho this may all be a folly,
My deepest emotions rise when you are near and they repent and pray for your swift return when you have gone.
Forever thinking of that first kiss,
that first touch of your breast,
and that last hug we shared,
I wonder into the emptiness that is my life without you and I try to move forward through the pain into another dreadful meaningless
it flys away,
takes right off to another day,
But it’s still the same,
Lonely and in love again,
Tell me this time it won’t run away,
That these dreams are here to stay,
My memories and a day,
Is all I need to be with you,
In this world in my head you remain,
Untouched and always the same you love me with no regrets my heart has never changed
But time fades,
never truly feeling the same again,
We run into a darkened place, and hide away the shame, with love spent and open wounds that won’t let you forget, the lover that you lost,
Time fades, yet we all change, never truly staying the same, born again, every other day,
Runaway with me, my friend,
My lover that I won’t soon forget,
Fade with me into a dream sanctuary deep inside of me, and let us be wild and free,
Naked like newborn children we can dance by the sea..
God is not a god
God is blind and cannot see,
All the pain that lays inside of me.
Yet the devil comes every night in my dreams and plays me sweet melodies.
From the emptiness and fear he enters my heart and heads strait to my brain, crossing over from his domain.
Cruel creatures follow with him dark evil malevolent begins who claw me from the inside tearing at my mind as I go insane
Madness sweet joyful bliss acquired from the lonely darkness of a man who’s been mistreated and left for dead.
Inside he feels no pain his heart taken and thrown to the demons, no longer human he can never change what he’s become.
Wishing for the end, hoping for a death, dreaming of his corpse, and his finale breath.
He goes back to sleep silent peacefully and alone.
The lesson is that there is a darkness inside of everyone. And that some people never let it out.