Stay Alive Challenge
There's this little thing going around called the Stay Alive Challenge for suicide awareness/prevention. I was asked to post a black & white photo & doing some tagging...
I have some rather strong & harsh feelings about suicide from both perspectives of it... from lying on the floor slipping away to losing far too many friends now & artists I've adored to it. It takes a piece of me every time someone I know loses that battle & makes me wonder every damn day what'll be the thing that pushes me over the edge. Morbid, I know. I've learned my lessons & will continue to. I've been graced with people I can only explain as angels in my life who were put there to make sure I stuck around... so here I am still...
So here's the deal... don't be a dick to people & try harder to have some compassion & understanding for circumstances you know nothing about. You make a difference... the smallest gestures can change everything & tip the scales to either side... choose the kind gestures!
If you're an artist, writer or musician... pour that understanding into your art... it fucking helps so much to make this world less lonely... it's saved me over & over again.
If you're hanging on the edge... don't ever let go. There's people you probably haven't even met yet that are so looking forward to having you in their future. So just hold on.
Motherfucking madness in these cups that matches the subtle fury rising from my heart to eyes in quiet disguise waiting like a warrior in the night stalking enemies for just the right moment to battle cry & attack in tornado of lattes flying & mismatched shabby sheik tables flippin over like rolling Midwest thunder with such terror the millennials hardly notice or divert transfixed blank gazes away from their phone covered faces...
Wanton Agony
You realize I'm insane, right?
Even in my own mind
No matter how many times
I'm told I'm not
Then later told I am
I'm not the dream you made up
From seeing photos
& reading words I wrote...
I'm not that deep in person
Just another broken jackass
Fooling around thru life
Trying to act normal
Not drawing unwanted attention
I do not match the
False life I quietly create
Amongst reality's boredom
Between photos
& the empty gaps words leave
Sure, I'm an artist...
Love like one
Fuck like one
I'll ravage you
Explore every part of your skin
In grand detail
First with fingers slowly
Followed by tongue
That will revel in all the
Sexy noises I can make you make
And purposely drag it out
To wanton agony
Just to see how long you'll last
Or I can hold out...
Nobody has outlasted me
That first go around
I'll dehydrate you
Get you water
& come back for more
With a vengeance
To make you lust for me
On lonely nights
After it's all been
Said then done
Long since I quietly
Took my leave of
Everything to just
Walk away from
You refusing
A dedicated life
To a fruity
Lost
Artsy
Soul
Like
Me