I know not, I seek not, I dare not. I care not.

For regrettably being called the forbidden.

Degrading, humiliating, shame .

I still do it fearlessly not caring what a soul feels or thinks of my motives. Stupidity forgotten

Stupidity lost

Stupidity misunderstood

Stupidity only has a place but to move on.

I believe because i have not yet seen

I believe because on Him I lean

I believe because His presence and His Spirit leads me into all that is

right and all that is good

Love is my belief

Courage is my belief

Trust is my belief , as I hang onto it by a thread

I refuse to let go of what I believe is

possible

And that is the display of what I call my faith.

No this is not happening.

Stop, please someone make it stop.

The air around me. The wind around me, nothing to stop or end my fall.

Hell will it be? or

Heaven will it be?

Which is it that I truly deserve?

Whatever it is that it may be or however it will end for me, know that I with my whole heart, loved more than I could ever love. Served more than I ever serve. Helped more than I ever could helpe, anyone who was ever in need of me to the best of my human physical ability.

If this good bye, then so be it. I will rest and I have peace knowing I will now as I have always been in the hands of my Creator.

I cannot feel . I cannot see. I cannot move. I am captivated by the stillness that surrounds me. Awaiting to hear the whisper. The whisper calms me, the whisper guides me, the whisper emchants my very soul. It never fails to bring me endless enlightenment and endless joy. I am forever fully engulfed in it's presence. That extends between here and eternity.