Well here goes ... everything
A plan, plan a , plan z i always have to have one
and yet, now comes the day when literally I have none!
I love you, my heart longs for you and that's all I know
so I pack my things , and grab my dog. Ready, set, go!
i should be scared, ask the what ifs, this is a long trip!
but I don't argue,i just know it's something I can't skip
To be with you I'll risk it all without a second glance
your love is intoxicating im hopelessly in your trance.
Despite the heartache and all of the baggage in the past
I know I can trust you and I have no need to even ask
while my life began a tragedy it's clear as day to me
they had to happen first,so happy ever after will we be
whole.
i guess there's a kind of beauty to brokenness,
that i've never really noticed,
your crooked smile,
snapped in places,
but still ever present,
how you never forget,
but always forgive,
even if it kills you a little,
or a lot.
how the lines on your hands,
don't tell a future,
but rather,
dreams,
wishes,
and your eyes,
although dimmer than others,
reflect galaxies of a different kind,
ones of peace,
hope, a forgotten love.
and how sometimes,
you break,
but always manage to reshape yourself,
so the punches hurt less,
how through everything,
your heart still beats,
to the unheard melody of joy,
which you said was,
only because of you
so it hurts when i see you,
but even though you've been broken,
i hope that together,
we could be,
something like a whole.
What I Want
When people ask me what I want
I tell them I don't know
But it's one of the few lies
I've ever told
I want to live in a mysterious house
With a history of love
Where sunlight peeks through curtains
And the stars shine on the roof
I want a bubbling brook
With playful frogs
That hop along
As I hop along
I want a true love
That holds me close
As we dance
Beneath the moon
I want little feet
That skip beside me
That I can tuck into bed
Every night
I want a magical pencil
That dances across the paper
And makes my imagination
Come to life
I want to look up
To the sky
And smile
With pure joy
I want to die
With peace in my mind
And love
In my heart
Care
Sometimes I wish
That I wouldn't care
I could toss aside the burdens
That I can't bear
Not worry about
The troubles around
Be free to run
Not be bound down
But my heart won't let me
Be worry free
And every where I look
I only see
Walls surrounding me
On every side
And I'm the only one
Stuck in the inside
And the people I love
I know they love me
But they keep putting pressure
And I can't be who I want to be
I hope for the best
And I don't know why
But when my loved ones push me
I only cry
And sometimes I wish
I could fall asleep
And be carried away
From a world so deep
But I still care
So I'll keep up the fight
And my heart will keep breaking
Until I find the light
Cluttered thinking
When I write, I write what my mind sees
vignette's of lovers, pained and pleasured and the
the life and death of a serial killer
But now my mind is cluttered
too many stories, too many windows
words in my head that call me to write
That when I type my pages,
they get lost by what they see
seeing into the windows, worlds and words
The lives of the people I imagine
the conversations, the coffee houses
the backs of vans with their latest prey
I stutter in my writing because the
conversations come too fast and my mind
can't keep up with what I see
When I write, I write what my mind sees
like a movie camera, capturing the scene
that did not happen in reality, only in the fantasy
of my minds eye
Your Sun
When your eyes are heavy
And they won't open
When your heart is heavy
And you can't lift it up
You can say my name
And I'll come
To help you
Along
People try to push you down
But I
Will only help
You up
Those words pounding
In your head
Go ahead
Let them out
I will be your ears
And heart
And soul
And your sun when you're alone