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KayseeMarie
"We travel not to escape life but for life to not escape us"
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KayseeMarie

Post-partum

I've wanted you for so long.

I loved you before you were in my arms.

I knew carrying you made me crazy

I felt like I was always angry.

I'd cry when I couldnt find a sock.

Your daddy would tell me to just stay calm.

I'd throw a fit and then laugh after.

Nothing I could control

It was the hormones.

Everyone told me this was normal.

But no one warned me about a few days after.

I held you in my arms

I looked into your eyes.

My child my love.

So why did I want to die?

Isn't this supposed to be the happiest time.

God won't you stop with the crying

I was not made for this

God can't you shut up for a minute.

You would be better off with out me

All I do is yell and scream

I love you but I hate you

What mother hates their child?

You'd be better off if I died

I take the razor to my wrist

Because I think you better off than this

My blood covered baby

I have loved you from the begining

No more pain for either of us.

This is my last action of pure love

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KayseeMarie

Help

They say everything happens for a reason

Yet I'm sitting here wondering screaming

Every time I try to be better

I end up further on the floor

Wonder when the kick's will stop

Wondering if this is what life is about

bruises all over my body

Punch after punch

Kick after kick

Left without a mark

Because it's life's greatest trick

An emotion play

That tugs on the soul

Wondering maybe just maybe you should let go

But then you remember some people care

Not many but one or two would die without you there

So you hold your Shaky hand back

Razor blade still in tack

And you wonder why you suffer

Wonder why all you do is cry

Life fucking sucks we all know

But the greatest act is pretending your okay

It's the greatest fucking show

So you go about your day

you pretend you are okay

Because if you aren't fine

Then your only destiny is too die

Your date is not suicide

So you have to put on a smile

So where do we go from here

Where do we get help

Chug your last beer

And stand the fuck up

Because yeah no one else has your luck

Only because you are strong

You will somehow overcome it all

Even when your whole body wants to quit

You'll be the one who will stand up not sit

A crowd of a million and you still stand out

Even though every cell is filled with doubt

Tomorrow you will be motivated

And in a month this poem will be repeated

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KayseeMarie

I always go to music festivals. This past one I was at had a giving tree, you give something you take something. Well I became friends with this guy who had taken a journal that was open for people to randomly write in it. It was honestly one of the most brilliant things I have seen at any type of social place. It was beautiful seeing all the different stories and poems, some of them very comical. Well I came home and some guy that ended up with the journal randomly found me and sent me a picture of a poem I had apparently written in when I was very very drunk so I thought I would share this comical poem even though most people wont really understand it unless you've been to a festival hah. Oh and i would just like to note that I dont do drugs I was writing off the people around me haha. 

The forest is the place to be

All the crazy shit you will see

Meeting friends named Aron tripping balls

Oh he cant stop laughing at nothing at all

Marcus was the one who climbed the tree

He is the one who passed this to me

High people all around

I'm melting into the fucking ground

All the psychedelic lights

I cant even describe the sight

My name is Kaysee

My friend is Raylin

Dylan is passed out drunk again..

What the fuck is my life

So High on bassnector I could cry

One dollar cigarettes lets go

Making snow without snow

Lucy Molly Special K

I could do this all damn day

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KayseeMarie

Nine drinks in 

And I still dont know where to begin

I used to find answers at the bottom of my bottle

Now Im just left disoriented, drowning in my sorrows

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KayseeMarie

The lights and the music surrounded her

She felt her heart thrive

She saw the world in a new light

In the mist of getting lost she found herself

She lost her mind but she found her soul

A smile crept across her face 

A smile that finally didn't feel fake

The lights and the music surrounded her

She jumped up and down in the crowd

She let all the bad emotions out

Tears falling down her face

Finally not caused by pain

Maybe it wasn't emptiness she was feeling all along

Maybe she wasn't so far gone

Maybe it was carving herself into who she was meant to be

And maybe it just hurt a lot more than you'd think

They call it chasing the dragon

But maybe she was chasing herself

Hide and seek with her soul

Winning was the only way she could grow

Her skin melted off and everything felt bare

Only clothed with her emotions

Walking towards the explosions

She thought she was lost but she was there all along

Hiding in a cave barricaded by a thick wall

A wall made out of materialistic things

A wall full of what the world wanted her to be

She hid in that cave so long

By the time she came out she was blinded by the sun

A crowd of people watched the demolition

Coworkers who shouted she could never finish

Family and friends who were confused

This new coming they didn't approve

Some people shouted to stay in the cave

Be like the world and just behave

Tearing down that wall

Was the hardest part of all

But now that she has found her worth

Maybe just maybe her heart wont hurt

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KayseeMarie

the emptiness inside

she's wasting her time

how can you call it depression

when there are no feelings at all

how can you not want to live

but not care to die

she is stuck in the middle

of a constant battle that just makes her feel little

How do you find the words

When you cant even find the emotions

How do you describe the numbness that overtakes your soul

How do you describe being nothing at all

How do explain the utter unhappiness but not being depressed at all

You blast music because some how it stops the questionable tears

When you have no emotion how do tell someone how you feel?

How do pour your heart on paper 

When it feels like your heart has retreated

What do you call an emotionless being

IS she heading toward a cliff 

Or is this what it feels like after you've fallen

But does she really even care

She looks at pictures from the weekend 

And it feels like a lifetime away

A different version of herself

How does she feel happiness again

Someone pull her out

Someone save her from herself

Someone make her care about this shitty poam

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KayseeMarie

How does he know

He used to watch her in her sleep

She finally thought she was free

You deserve better they would say

But they never tell you how hard it is when you break away

A slut, a whore, a heartless bitch

She was garbage according to him

Until she tried to leave

And magically she was everything he needs

I love you, please don't go, the water works

He'd really put on a show

But with each passing day

His true colors would come to play

The jealousness, the greed, the guilt trips

She knew eventually it'd be his fists

So she broke his heart and said enough

She blocked his number and burned his stuff

But nothing she could do

Could stop a love "so true"

He called her a hundred times a day

He showed up at her work

He wasn't letting his love get away

He cried and blamed everyone else

Messaged her mom, begged for help

The months went by

And turned to years

And it's sad she is still full of fear

He still calls her to beg for another chance

He still calls her a whore when he think she has a new man

He knows her every move it seems

What she wears 

who she sees

She gets a new car and he just happens to know

When she left his true self really showed

He's phyco

A lunatic

But he says he just wants to be her friend

She tells him never ever again

But He will never get the fucking hint

Challenge
Tell a story through a list: 1) It can be broken by numbers or bullet points or commas or something else. 2) It can be a collection or sequence or whatever you want. 3) Winner gets 50 coins.
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1. Steal parents credit card slowly take out money

2. Buy one way ticket to another country

3. Steal keys to the gun cabinet and make a copy

4. Count bullets

5. Buy more if needed

6. Buy a black hood, new jacket, chains and locks

7. Pay off drunk janitor for master key

8. Take guns to school at midnight using master key

9. Hide in gym vent with gasoline and matches 

10. Slash securty guards tires morning of so he is late

11. Write note and hide in draw

12. Send anomynous texts to girls starting mass fights

13. Use master key to shut off power to stop automatic lockdown mode and cameras

14. Chain all exits from least noticeable to main exit

15. Grab guns

16. Start fire in gym

17. Watch everyone run for door and start lighting up

18. Explore each room for victims

19. Sit and watch the chaos

20. Take off cloak and throw guns in fire

21. Shoot self in arm throw last gun in fire 

22 Crawl to closest classroom and wait for rescue

23. Convenience cops you saw shooters face and it was drunk janitor

24. Get arm wrapped use pain pills to drug mother

25. Take cash and plane ticket and leave country

25. Watch news and enjoy

26. Call boss and tell him its done

*if any number fails commit suicide*

Challenge
CotW #63: Take a much-loved Disney story, twist it into an adult, kick-in-the-gut tale. Poetry or Prose. The most eloquent, elegant, entertaining entry, ascertained by Prose, earns $100 and stays atop the Spotlight shelf for six straight days. Feel free to invite friends, distant family, even strange acquaintances to play this challenge with you anonymously. Please use #twistedtales for sharing online. Now lights, camera, fiction.
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KayseeMarie

A tale as old as time

A miraculous house as big as a castle.

Fathers telling their babies they will live happy ever after.

Save your father, meaning give him reputation and wealth!

Everyone knows what a beautiful daughter is worth.

It is not what's on the outside her father would tell.

But my God did this beast smell

The beast fit perfect as he had more hair than most

With a prutuding gut and would drool as he boast

He would always boast about his last chance

His last true love to make him a man

But to lay with this beast

Was truly sickening

She cried and begged and pleaded

But his servants all called her coincided

She must get with the times and do as she is told

Even marrying a man who's ever so old

A tale as old as time

Your virginity being yours is a lie

Just a thing her parents have sold

But she feels too young to be betrothed

Twelve is ever so young

She should be able to chose who she loves

She must where a yellow dress

And dance to impress

She must behave in every way

Or her family's reputation will pay

In a child's eyes a monster can be anything. A hanger in their closet or the creepy old neighbor across the street. Well what about an old man who looks like a beast?

A tale that was twisted and sugar coated, so young girls would not fight when they were sold. A story more about a girls survival. Beauty and the beast really holds up to it's title. Many look at it as bestiality but what about a man being with a child? Does that not technically make it a love story about a pedophile?   

Challenge
You are a robot sent to explore the outer rim of the Milky Way galaxy. You have returned to Earth after 200 years. What is the first thing you say?
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"I come in peace as your ancestors would say, would be a lie"

*Count down begins to atomic bomb that destroys earth*