Hold up, let me tiktok this

Faces behind a screen, while real life goes a miss

We swipe left and right but will never meet

What’s a real date when you can say hi from your seat

We live in a different world now, nothing will ever be the same

People will do anything just for a little insta fame

Subscribe to my only fans, nah I think I’ll pass

If we can’t have a true connection I don’t want to see your ass

As I walk through the forest a serenity feels the air

I travel down pathways, that most would not dare

I enjoy my solitude, as it clears my mind

Sweet whispers feel my ear, the weather is kind

The sun is cresting the trees

As I finally reach my peak, I drop to my knees

A view that I never want to forget

As approach the edge I begin to sweat

I take a deep breath and hold the nervousness in

As I sit on this ledge at piece with my sins

I’m awake but cannot move

To the bed I am bound

I begin to panic as I start hearing sounds

I should be alone, no ones supposed to be hear

As I glance into the corner a shadow man appears

My heart is now racing

Only thing on my mind is escaping

I try to scream but nothing come out

The feeling of stitches across my mouth

Is this sleep paralysis or is it real?

If I don’t wake up my soul he’ll steal

This demon, this devil what is to be?

This shadow man is now standing beside me

His face is darkened but his eyes glow red

There must be away to end this dread

First a shortness of breath, and now I cant breathe

I lay the there lifeless as my body starts to seethe

Like a volcano, I finally erupt

The shadow man disappears as my eyes fully adjust

I lay back down with him now imprinted in my mind

Hoping that in this sleep it’ll be peace I find

Drink, drank, drunk

I drown myself in this bottle

Stuck behind a desk

In my own self pity I wallow

Alone in this house

Bound to the hustle

Do I want love or money?

My brain is strained, a constant worked muscle

This is the purgatory I choose

Lost in the pursuit for happiness

Waiting for a change

The want is ravenous

If love is not a tragedy

Then what was Romeo and Juliet

Now a days people idolize Harley and Joker

Ignoring the poison that nearly lead to her death

We watch romance movies saying one day it’ll be us

Just to double tap the table, get another card, and then bust

We take the things that matter for granted

Then end up alone and stranded

The moral is to stop comparing to whats around you

The story is yours and yours only to pursue

I healed a child today and now must hide

My sisters ashes at the burning stake they reside

For the art of witchcraft, my soul lies

But within Salem, we are bound to die

The stench of burning flesh is constant

The battle between us is a never ending conflict

Unrighteous deaths leaving families mourned

Unmarked graves; broken and torn

I leave this sigil on this floor

my memento mori, here forevermore

I’m just a guy in the world trying to try

Growing up momma always said never make girls cry

But in the world we live in there’s no guide book to this

We don’t realize until it’s gone, that it will be missed

Good intentions with broken promises

Attempts to give the world but never astonishes

That first hello has turned into an ending fuck you

Now we go our separate ways, I bid you adieu

Hidden behind masks due to a virus

That may kill and has killed

Though some of us have always worn masks

Masks that hide our emotions

Emotions that build up

That may kill and has killed

Then we turn to addictions

Addictions that helps us forget

These addictions turn into bad habits

That may kill and has killed

They say suicide isn’t an option

But why does it appear in your thoughts?

The thoughts that repeat and replay in and out everyday

That may kill and has killed

The feeling of being trapped in a maze

Being lost in life, letting everything pass you by

You have to find that fulcrum point in life

Let live stay alive

That sunrise in the morning

Promising a brighter day

A day that you can strive for more

Let live stay alive

The smiling faces of your friends and family

You bring joy to peoples lives

You just never stopped to realize it

Let live stay alive

You find the one you love

Now you have something you’ve never felt before

A new adventure to explore

Let live stay alive

Do you not pick the rose?

The beauty is there and so are the thorns

Are you scared of what you have chose?

When all that person wants is to be cradled in your arms

Will you be the one to pick it up?

We all struggle when times get tough

When you want a hot coffee, don’t you grab the cup?

Just stay by their side because you are enough

Did some one tell you that love is easy?

You thought this was a walk in the park

Do you fight for the things you want?

You have to be there light all thru the dark

Sadness hidden behind the mask of a smile

Her depression hit way before the virus came down

Only difference now is she’s frowning behind and actual mask

Wondering every morning if things will get better

Should she keep going, is it worth it, and will she be missed

The thoughts repeat in her head

Destruction, a hurricane of emotions

A flood, a constant drowning sensation

All she wants is true love

Because the abuse, no one deserves it

So she sits on a roof top waiting on a star

That one life changing moment

That push to go on