I wish that i could water you down

like the Jameson i drink

to benumb

how strong and

painful

you are

It's cruel that I am wired

to desire

the things

I should not have

Another drink

Another high

A different place

and You

I want to show you

The way you deserve to be loved.

I want to make you breakfast,

And see your sleepy frown each morning, as you pull me tight against your soft warm skin, and beg me to stay in bed with you all day.

I want to love you,

More than you've ever been loved.

I want to explore the world, make mistakes, and get lost more often, and I want you by my side for all of it. There's nowhere in this world I would rather be, than wrapped up in your arms.

take her hand put

in on your chest

let her feel

her rhythm dance

within your heart

I swallow every thought of you

And chase it with liquor, straight

Neither of them taste good

But i don't seem to care.

I do both

Far too often

Just to feel the buzz.

Or perhaps,

Just to get rid of it

How can I believe 

     in your love for me

When you are killing us 

     so carelessly?

Without a second 

     thought or mind

Your suspicion slashes 

     so unkind

You angrily squeeze and 

     turn to dust

Our fragile psyches 

     letting rust

Corrode the future 

     of our past

Without a chance to 

     make it last.

Your claims of love eternally

Aren't backed by faith 

     or trust in me.

You breathe your awe 

     into my mouth

Just before you send us south

With all the birds who 

     love each other

More than just in 

     stormy 

           weather.

i have never tried

to convince myself

that what my heart felt was

wrong

and i won't tell you

that it's painless

but nothing beautiful

ever is

I drink you in like straight liquor

Shaken, not stirred

Things are always on the rocks with you.

I want you

I need you

But you burn as soon as you touch my lips

And

Like the vodka,

I regret you the next morning

Every

Fucking

Time