I don’t know where to begin

My life’s been all over the map

But Arizona is still on my mind

Her infectious smile

And sparkling eyes

I will always remember Arizona

Even if Arizona has

Forgotten me

There’s a beauty in solitude

Sitting quietly

Letting the world pass by

No controlling

No judgment

Just being

Sitting by myself

But not alone

The world is happening all around

Going on as if I’m not here at all

Trying to find peace within myself

So I can find peace in the world

Just sit

Just breathe

We seem to be defined by what we possess

Not by who we are

But if you lost it all today

Would you still be you

If your possessions were all lost

Would you be lost with them

Are you what you possess

Or are you more then your possessions

What defines you

Lost as I was

Looking for a life line

Trying to stay afloat

Just treading water

You were there

Anchored in your boat

I’m waiting for you

To throw me a line

A line that will never come

You smile so coyly- - -

Just like you always do

I’m drowning here

Your smiling

You bitch

Somewhere I lost my way

When exactly it was I can’t recall

When I needed direction

You were not there

When I needed a hand up

You were not there

Somewhere I lost my way

You let me wander aimlessly

Lost, alone and frightened

Screaming out in pain

Screaming for you to see me

Screaming for you to help me

You turned a deaf ear

I was my own problem

Not yours

You never had the time

You were too busy

Destroying other lives

Sitting and looking for creativity

But creativity is not something you can sit and wait for

It won’t come looking for you

You must get up and get outside yourself to find it

You must pursue it

Hunt it down and grab hold of it

Ride it for all you can

Because there are days

You just can’t find it

But on the days that you do

Hold on

As long as you can

Like an angel

You came into my life

You were there when I needed you most

You guided me through the darkest hours of my life

Like a lighthouse shining

You kept me from the rocky shores of destruction

Through all those long stormy nights

You showed me a better path

A path filled with love and happiness

You were the angel I needed then

You are the angel I still need today

You showed me what love is

Love is you

The night spent with you

The heat of late summer in the air

Our bodies entwined as one

The smell of whiskey, sweat and sex

That night with you

Still lives with me today

Graveyards scattered with secrets

The secrets of all those that have gone before

If you listen closely you can hear the cries

The cries of pain

Of sorrow

Of joy

But you will never know their secrets

Those they hold close

Even in death