All the money couldn't buy it

but won't stop you from trying

best things in life are free

but not the availability

an abundance of struggle

flow of constant trouble

we live in a nightmare

focusing on dreams

pleading for our lives

for a little joy it seems

leading our lives

walking through the dark

daily suppressing feelings

by the lies we've spoke

fooling ourselves

into seeking wealth

when joy is so far

emotionally scarred

I hope you're happy

for all our sakes

I really don't know

how much heartbreak

I can take

I feel a pain running through my veins

It used to feel good where love stood

Where has it all gone

Emptiness between walls

Lonely steps on the floors

A reflection of my former self

A subtle cry for help

I bask in the darkness that becomes me

A shield from people that hurt me

Wrap me in arms of cold

Finally something to hold

This sadness feels good it's constant

It's the only thing that never changes

I trust it more than I trust myself

I love it more than love itself

Love left me it hurt me

Who needs love it always runs out

I often get lost in my thoughts

Like a tornado

With emotions colliding

Like debris

From a broken heart

My mind is at unrest

Toiling through the night

My dreams wander

Seeking peace

Never knowing rest

A shadow fills the void

Occupying important space

My heart beats out of habit

But no true purpose

A smiles slides through cracks

Created by loneliness

I stare at a mirror

I see nothing

Looking through my soul

I should see something

If I wore my heart on my sleeve

It would be on a shirt that's torn

I've struggled before

But not like this

This pain I hold

This clenched fist

Sweat falls from above

Eyes filled with water

Who am I

I crept in as the sun went down

The last bird chirped a sound

The air began to chill

The leaves became still

Each step slower that the last

As my heart beat fast

I pondered the ending

As I approach the beginning

She sat there blank faced

My arrival no surprise

I glance at my shoe lace

A diversion from my hearts cry

As my reached my pocket

The sweat tripled in flow

The object burned my hand

It feels like she knows

Joy turned fright

My mind turned on me

Every bone began to shake

As I got on one knee

Her eyes watched my every move

She moved with me in sync

Her mouth formed a smile

And cried as I blinked

With parched lips I began

To mutter words I've never spoken

Will you marry me my love

She replied in a host of tears

Yes you beautiful man

As the last bird chirped a song

What do you call a sponge

That never wrings out

A mind so full

No thoughts come out

These emotions flow

Endless and continuous

The flow is so thick

It's all just darkness

A cavern of loathing

Too deep to control

Space so vast

Just an empty soul

How possible this is

Full where nothing exists

A hollow husk

With useless organs

I cry inside

Where smiles usually lie

I tear apart the seams

In places I used to dream

The sadness seems unreal

Reality can be cruel

I stared for hours

At the image in my mind

I thought for days

But I forgot to cry

I got angry at strangers

Anger at myself felt stranger

My emotions seemed weird

They suddenly disappeared

I wish

You left so suddenly

I couldn't say goodbye

It's not your fault

I blame that bad guy

That morning we hugged

It felt so normal

I just didn't know

That night you were gone

I felt so hollow

Actions by another

Left me torn into pieces

Shambles of a broken heart

That beats for no reason

Now you are resting

But I'm so restless

We promised each other

Forever

You broke it

You broke me

I go on wondering

If I could be next

At least I could see you

It's all I want to do

Legally we all commit crimes

what about the ones inside

deprivation should be sin

or the lack of love within

we all have one body one mind

let your emotions out your mind shine

peace be with the accepting heart

balance from within can't be torn apart

we strive in an abundance of love

and suffer with a lack thereof

living life as if it's golden

live yours like you have been chosen

for not many have come this far

show the world who you truly are

graves are dig every day

show the world why you deserve to stay

the actions we daily take for granted

are some that most people ever wanted

I shake in excitement to live each day

and shiver in despair

when I've nothing to say

for each day is a blessing

each peril a new lesson

I may not be the teacher

but I will always be a believer

Vastly deep

the human mind exceeds

preconceived notions

unconventional potions

where the mind begins

is where the body ends

united in chemistry

existing in perfect harmony

we are wondrous

such is humanity

our beginning can be the end

where we end we can finally begin

answers unknown

stories untold

we develop as we grow

cherish more the more we know

it's a calamity

so much vanity

imperfectly designed to be perfect

undefined and so deserving

the human race is a marathon

each life lives on

eternity is so far

tomorrow so close

running from the end

not knowing we are so close.

This screen is my voice

emotions replaced

not by choice

emoticons and smileys

I laugh hardly

but messages say otherwise

texts I grow to despise

beneath closed doors

lies a past filled with books

pens and pencils overlooked

but look outside

nowhere to hide

faces hidden by bright screens

communicating through digital screens

in groups we feel alone

texting and updating statuses

never looking up

saying hello seems old fashioned

we ration

the data within grasp

and forget the bonds forged

when a pen and a pad

was all we had.