Where is my love?

It is among the stars,

For my heart could not contain it.

Where is my devotion?

It lives on the moon,

You cannot always see it but it is always there.

Where is my home?

It is within you,

To whom I return after every of life’s adventures.

I guess I don’t know where this is going

I guess I don’t have a purpose

I guess I don’t have as many friends as I would like,

But I know how to be happy

I know how to forget it all, if only for a little while

And when I do this, when I achieve happiness,

Nothing else in the world matters

I don’t care if anyone’s watching

I don’t care what I say

There are no consequences, no repercussions

I am free and wild, young and careless

And then I go home at the end of the night

I look at myself in the mirror

And all my responsibilities and insecurities

Come rushing back all at once

I don’t have a second to prepare

I go immediately from being happy

To being me

But it’s ok

Because I got to be someone else,

Even if it was only for a night

I got to be the person I wish I could let out more often,

The person more people would like

I can’t be her always

But it doesn't matter

I’m fine with who I am

I’m fine with being shy and easily stressed

I’m fine with keeping everything bottled up inside

I like me

I don’t need everyone else to

I am content

She doesn’t know quite yet

Who she wants to be.

She doesn’t know quite yet

How all her pieces fit together.

But she knows she’s getting there.

She knows she isn’t standing still anymore.

She knows she can’t let anything or anyone

Stop her from living

The life she’s always wanted.

Behind her blue eyes

And her forced smile,

She has a dream.

And finally,

She’s done giving up her dreams

For people who don’t really want

What’s best for her.

For the first time in her life,

She has a plan

That she won’t change for anyone.

For the first time in her life,

She won’t be standing on the sidelines

Watching everyone else

Find their happy endings.

For the first time in her life,

She knows it’s all going to work out.

Death came fast,

I could barely hear,

The screech of tires,

And screams.

Now I sit in a little room,

There are other kids,

I look around.

Desks are everywhere,

Some kids are slouched,

Others alert and happy.

I guess it depends how long you've been here.

I'm confused as the teacher arrives,

She stands in front of us,

And writes on the chalk board,

Never talking.

The scratching hurts,

My ears are bleeding,

But there is no blood.

My head is ringing,

While I try to figure things out.

We are all dead here, aren't we?

I had many.

Fear of not waking up.

Fear of not going to sleep.

Fear of falling in love.

Fear of falling out of love.

The fears, over the years,

piled on high,

and I asked myself why?

Why do I let them get to me?

Why don't they just leave me be?

Now, I'm in the Autumn of my years,

no longer fearing all the spilled beers,

FDR said it best,

and in truth its the best test.

The only thing you have to fear, is fear itself.

I can walk on a crack,

and won't break my back.

I can walk under a ladder,

laughing like the Mad Hatter.

Now, nothing is the matter.

My fears, over the years,

have slowly disappeared,

and there are none left

to make my heart rate soar,

well there is one ...

I don't want to be a bore.

I am a daisy in the center of a field of daisies.

The one no one can get to

That no one can see

That no one even knows is there.

I’m just waiting for the right person

To come and see

That I am no less than everyone else

Just because I am hidden.

I’m just as beautiful

As all the other daisies.

You just need to look a little harder.

I’m just waiting for the right person

To take me away

To a place where I’m the only daisy.

To a place where I stand out

As the unique and special person I am.

Sometimes someone

Sacrifices safety

So someone survives.

Saving someone

Seldom seems simple.

So strenuous.

So strong.

So surprising.

So significant.