You can fail yourself.

You can fail others.

Never does one truly fail except when they fail themselves. The only way you can truly fail is to stop trying, because it is shameful to only yourself when you no longer try. You have truly failed when you give up.

You can fail others. But it doesn't really truly matter. It only is disapproval. But make sure the absence of their blessing dose not cause failure to your self.

No matter. I know you do not care.

If you cared you wouldn't need to discourage it. You wouldn't say, "you're lucky." I no longer listen or care. Your words are a blur. Food. House. Family.

Well guess what?

I DON'T CARE!!!!

Make it go away! You go away! Leave me alone. The pain will consume me. I will not die, I only do to fix things, I only do things with purpose.

I fixed the pain. I'll fix the life. I'll get the experience.

But the point. Yes the point.

Slicing apples. Numbish. Red. No! Too much. No. Not enough. Soaked. All red, sticking on go away it doesn't hurt! No! No!

Tomorrow. Every bend hurts. I'm alone. Alone forever but I don't care. I just wish I was alone and could do.

I'm sure that I will never have enough stories. I can always remember sitting on a family members lap and listening to their stories. Car wrecks, love, life. They would say of their times as children and then I know. I have not completed enough now. I will never. I can not tell the children of my times. Slow dragging. Or the worst yet. What if, when it is that time, all I will have to show is scars. No! I will do something. Some day. I will.

I know,

You think you are smart.

And you are.

But you're going to get confused.

And honey,

Bad things have happened.

You don't know now,

But I want you to keep your head.

You are the friend you need.

And ask others questions.

Ask questions,

Get answers,

And strive for what you want.

Not what others want for you.