The sound of a cat purr

It has such a calming effect

It makes you want to be just

As content and relaxed

And happy as the cat is

Listen to it long enough it will make you

Tired and sleepy

And hopefully

Just hopefully it will calm you too!

Life is like a puzzle

Except this puzzle

You don’t know what it will look like

It may have damaged pieces

Or missing pieces

And pieces may be faded and flawed

And sometimes your puzzle can change

Sometimes you want it to change

Hoping for a better outcome

But life doesn’t work that way

We try to fix our broken pieces

Repair them the best way we can

But they will never be the same as before

We can only hope for the best

And try to find better pieces!

As I watch the burning candle

I listen to the crackling of the wick

It makes me free like fall

And the leaves falling

Bonfires on a Friday night

Listening to the trees

And feeling the breeze on my skin

It helps me escape my loneliness

But only for a short time

Just enough to make me feel

Almost whole again

The scent brings back memories

Good memories

Ones you miss and wish you could still have again

But yet again just enough

To feel whole again

Even for a little while

Never lose sight in the beauty of nature and

Listen to the sounds of the trees

They are talking to you

You just have to listen!!!

Burn a candle and get mesmerized

By the sound of the burning wick

And scent of memories!

Let your loneliness flow away

Even if it’s a short time!

What does it truly mean to be damaged?

Well in my case damaged is...

Being sexually assaulted by a coworker

That you knew there was something about him that wasn’t right

But other coworkers just said he was odd or different...

Being afraid to realize that the only man you ever loved was

Toxic too you for several years

And you still have problems letting go...

To being afraid to let someone new in

Cause you can’t let go of the one who destroyed you

And hoping one day you will finally be free...

This is my version of damaged, it’s a daily struggle for me

It’s a weakness I’m tired of carrying

Will I ever be free?

Time doesn’t always heal the pain

It’s been over a year and the pain is still there

The memories consume my mind

Memories I don’t wish to remember

I just want to forget the pain

All the regrets I made

All the why’s and why me’s

All the lessons I’m done learning

This beautiful soul of mine is tired

I just want to live pain free in my heart ❤️ and mind!!!!

Sometimes we must face the truth

Sometimes we hope that we find our happiness

Sometimes life just throws us a curveball

When we finally get a glimpse of happiness

We do the dumbest things and toss it aside

Why do we try if all we get is hurt

But sometimes just sometimes

You wake up and realize

That happiness has been here the whole time

All those dark clouds kept it hid

And now you can finally live...

Never forget

That sometimes you just have to look...

I’m beautiful

Inside and out

For so long

I’ve thought I was ugly

But it was just the person I was with

He made me feel ugly

He made me think I was the bad one

I couldn’t do anything right

But it was him all along

He was the toxic piece of shit!

But I’ve finally found the strength

The strength to see how strong I really am!

I’ve become the woman that I love

That can finally look in the mirror

And see how beautiful I’ve become.

I’m proud of that woman

But still have work to do...

It’s time

Time to finally become

The woman that’s had enough,

I’m tired of all these chauvinist

They think women are only here for sex

I’m tired of all the people that think

They women with short hair

Are gay or just gave up?!

Short hair on women don’t make you gay

And if I was, so what, to each their own!

If you’ve lived my life then you would know why I’ve made my changes!

I’m tired of all the stereotypes

I’m tired that we have that much hate towards people

I’ve never met a perfect person

Because their aren’t any

But we live in a world

That since social media took over

There’s nothing but hate and prejudice

So what if I choose to abstain from sex!

I’m no ones hoe or whore or whenever!

So what if I cut my hair short and dye it blonde

Instead of the long and red hair that men seem to only be interested in,

I’ve made my decision for me and only me!

I’m not here for anyone’s approval

Except my own!

So for all you haters out there

You can suck it!

It’s time we stand up for ourselves

And stop the hatred and chauvinism in this world!

I finally made a decision

Of what I want to do

I’m going to take the leap

And move on from this place

There’s nothing for me in Ohio

The life I’ve known is not the same

I need to make new memories

So I’m gonna make a change

I need a fresh start

One that hopefully brings new hope

I deserve some happiness in the life

So I’m gonna move on from this place

Rebuild my life

Bring the peace i so deserve

Tennessee here I come

It’s time to move on...

Its almost been a year

A year I had to give up

The only man I’ve loved

Loved to the point

That I would have done anything for

Have been trying to find someone

Someone that I could love as much

As I once loved before

But my fears are keeping me from letting go

Letting someone in

Someone that isn’t toxic

Someone that won’t hurt me

Someone that will and can love me

The way I should be loved

But will I ever allow that person in

Will I give my heart to the right one

Or will I be lonely for the rest of my life!