Life is like a puzzle
Except this puzzle
You don’t know what it will look like
It may have damaged pieces
Or missing pieces
And pieces may be faded and flawed
And sometimes your puzzle can change
Sometimes you want it to change
Hoping for a better outcome
But life doesn’t work that way
We try to fix our broken pieces
Repair them the best way we can
But they will never be the same as before
We can only hope for the best
And try to find better pieces!
As I watch the burning candle
I listen to the crackling of the wick
It makes me free like fall
And the leaves falling
Bonfires on a Friday night
Listening to the trees
And feeling the breeze on my skin
It helps me escape my loneliness
But only for a short time
Just enough to make me feel
Almost whole again
The scent brings back memories
Ones you miss and wish you could still have again
But yet again just enough
To feel whole again
Even for a little while
Never lose sight in the beauty of nature and
Listen to the sounds of the trees
They are talking to you
You just have to listen!!!
Burn a candle and get mesmerized
By the sound of the burning wick
And scent of memories!
Let your loneliness flow away
Even if it’s a short time!
What does it truly mean to be damaged?
Well in my case damaged is...
Being sexually assaulted by a coworker
That you knew there was something about him that wasn’t right
But other coworkers just said he was odd or different...
Being afraid to realize that the only man you ever loved was
Toxic too you for several years
And you still have problems letting go...
To being afraid to let someone new in
Cause you can’t let go of the one who destroyed you
And hoping one day you will finally be free...
This is my version of damaged, it’s a daily struggle for me
It’s a weakness I’m tired of carrying
Will I ever be free?
Time doesn’t always heal the pain
It’s been over a year and the pain is still there
The memories consume my mind
Memories I don’t wish to remember
I just want to forget the pain
All the regrets I made
All the why’s and why me’s
All the lessons I’m done learning
This beautiful soul of mine is tired
I just want to live pain free in my heart ❤️ and mind!!!!
Sometimes we must face the truth
Sometimes we hope that we find our happiness
Sometimes life just throws us a curveball
When we finally get a glimpse of happiness
We do the dumbest things and toss it aside
Why do we try if all we get is hurt
But sometimes just sometimes
You wake up and realize
That happiness has been here the whole time
All those dark clouds kept it hid
And now you can finally live...
That sometimes you just have to look...
Inside and out
For so long
I’ve thought I was ugly
But it was just the person I was with
He made me feel ugly
He made me think I was the bad one
I couldn’t do anything right
But it was him all along
He was the toxic piece of shit!
But I’ve finally found the strength
The strength to see how strong I really am!
I’ve become the woman that I love
That can finally look in the mirror
And see how beautiful I’ve become.
I’m proud of that woman
But still have work to do...
Time to finally become
The woman that’s had enough,
I’m tired of all these chauvinist
They think women are only here for sex
I’m tired of all the people that think
They women with short hair
Are gay or just gave up?!
Short hair on women don’t make you gay
And if I was, so what, to each their own!
If you’ve lived my life then you would know why I’ve made my changes!
I’m tired of all the stereotypes
I’m tired that we have that much hate towards people
I’ve never met a perfect person
Because their aren’t any
But we live in a world
That since social media took over
There’s nothing but hate and prejudice
So what if I choose to abstain from sex!
I’m no ones hoe or whore or whenever!
So what if I cut my hair short and dye it blonde
Instead of the long and red hair that men seem to only be interested in,
I’ve made my decision for me and only me!
I’m not here for anyone’s approval
Except my own!
So for all you haters out there
You can suck it!
It’s time we stand up for ourselves
And stop the hatred and chauvinism in this world!
I finally made a decision
Of what I want to do
I’m going to take the leap
And move on from this place
There’s nothing for me in Ohio
The life I’ve known is not the same
I need to make new memories
So I’m gonna make a change
I need a fresh start
One that hopefully brings new hope
I deserve some happiness in the life
So I’m gonna move on from this place
Rebuild my life
Bring the peace i so deserve
Tennessee here I come
It’s time to move on...
Its almost been a year
A year I had to give up
The only man I’ve loved
Loved to the point
That I would have done anything for
Have been trying to find someone
Someone that I could love as much
As I once loved before
But my fears are keeping me from letting go
Letting someone in
Someone that isn’t toxic
Someone that won’t hurt me
Someone that will and can love me
The way I should be loved
But will I ever allow that person in
Will I give my heart to the right one
Or will I be lonely for the rest of my life!