"LOST"

The unending journey I embarked on kept me wondering...

Will I ever get there or it's just a facade?

I became a traveler who hasn't prepared their death,

Was I a traveler to start with?

I was nothing other than a boy with dreams and no purpose

Gradually becoming an empty soul

Felt no joy as pain became my companion.

In the quest of finding purpose I became without purpose

How sad.....

But yet I kept wandering hopelessly hoping to arrive at a destination where peace is traded

Willing to trade my life in exchange for it

Even if it will take my last breath,

All I ask is to remember how it feels once again.

Is this who I ever dreamt of?

I became a stranger within myself

All I ever asked for was a father

Who cares and whom I could confide

But instead I became the father to

Seven at seventeen.

With no one to talk to

I became the listener of my own tales

So sad no one understands me,

Sadness was no longer a stranger but

Instead it became my happiness

Happiness became a bad memory

The more I remembered the more

Angered I get as it was all nothing but false hope that makes you weak.

Will I ever smile again?

This was all I asked for....

"I felt the difference in me of yesterday and I of today.

Was I the sweet, lovable kid back then?

Or I ended up just like him?

In the quest for becoming a better me

I ended up as my worst nightmare

Evil became my path as

Anger was my peace

But yet never fought with any

I became my own opponent

And was easily defeated by the I in me.

Change claims to be constant

But was mine really that way?

As I became worse and never changed from the him I became"

"Kept searching for me

The more I looked, the more lost I got

I became evil whilst being kind

I know not who I am

Is this the right path?

What if it's the wrong path?

These were the questions I asked myself all days of my life.

Seeking for happiness which I knew was never meant for me.

It's surprising how young yet so old I became.

Fully withdrawn to my inner beast

As I became the monster the world deserves

Maybe I'll be me in the next world"