i

prayed for

my husband,

but he

has to

get

down

on

his knees first

...

you loved me just as i loved you,

like i was made of silver and gold.

you never told me

that you were going,

you simply told me to close my eyes.

and still i could see you leave.

When did I become so obsessed with perfect

you walk around like you dont comitt murder

you have the anger as a viper

I be lying if I didnt have a bad case of paranoia

I often fuck yah feelings

i am a villain

call me cruel

I Am a nagger

I jank your collar

I need your poison

I am needy

I am collector

I want your serects

but you won’t have mine

I am sinner

I cant help it

I am a perfectionist

I will wrap around you like an anacoda and suffocate

you

I like to see you squirm

I am fascinated with your demonic mind

my body aint holy

i like the way drugs enter my body

I will keep chasing the mania

I can’t keep the manic down

i stress people out

you‘ll Turn gray and old

I can’t help it

I am dead inside

I scratch and claw

my way out of the ground

I don’t want you

but I need you

I am an confusing contradiction

just love me

I know I am mad As the hatter

I know I look innocent

but you don’t know I am a monster

i am difficult

I got walls on walls

be my rapunzel

jump over my walls

might slit yah for getting to close

I don’t know how to show u me without

bleeding out through poetry

I am crazy

I am a colorful cutie

a rainbow brite child

I got a sucidal smile

I am the joker

why so serious baby

I warned you I am living inside

my skeleton

I hope your reading this one

i am flawed

Jesus save me

I ain’t perfect me

prayer hands

cause I am hypocrite

the pew cant hold me

my passive

aggressive

is aggressive

I am blunt

I am mean

I don’t like people

pity you humans

I often feel godlike

i lack sympathy

bullshit

I hate you

i lie

like a cheater

when I say I love You

I don’t feel emotion

when there’s connection

I love from a distance

I wrap my body on a cross

I am not afraid to die

I am insecure

I fear no one will ever really stay in love with me

so when I found you

I went look for reasons proving you didnt love me

but fuck your feelings

cause this piece is about me

I am emotional

I wallow in my drama or trauma

I need my mama

I just want someone who understands my silence

i am freak in sheets

I am no child of god

I slept with stranger to feel at home

I am a mistake

I have tried to abort myself

I get in my feelings

too much

like I am drake

I submerge in myself

that I forget how other people feel maybe it’s because I am victim of the abuse

I let people get in the way of my relationships

i see the future

I started flipping out

i tend to overthink

I cocked the gun

I inflict my bullets

i tell you to stay gone

because if I lose you

I don’t know to pick up the damn pieces of my heart

I am crazy

obsessEd with destroying myself

I will manipulate a situation to get the outcome

I don’t deserve shit

i often hate myself

I have tried to cut myself out of my skin

hoping I fall out of body

my greatest mistake is being too afraid

of Not being all put together

i am a spaghetti sauce spread on a white wall

I AM MESs

It’s not love if we made it

why don’t we make it

I strip the ego

cause i am no angel

don’t you realize all angels fall from heaven

#mychurchisinsession...

#idontcareifmyhonestyoffends #umightnotlikemeguesswhatidontlikemeeither

#childofherdesires

He said: "Drop the Class"

I said: nothing cause I'm scared

Months past but I stayed

The semester ends with a

B and an apology

#Haiku #Protest #Willpower

Please don't ever let me go

For more than just a while.

Never ever let me stray

Far from your sweet smile

Stay near me, listen softly

The words I say to you

Though you may not hear my voice

What I'm speaking is the truth

The longing is there beneath the letters

My fingers reaching towards you

Curiosity is written between every line

Would you let me be there for you?

See when you respond I hear your shape

I see your hidden colors

I feel your voice and smell your touch

And it's so unlike any other.

Though I'm nowhere near you

I can feel your embrace

And maybe I can't see you

But I hear the smile on your face.

Those words we tell each other

That's how I know your eyes

How I can say I've tasted your lips

And know how they'd feel on mine

So please don't ever let me go

For more than just a while.

And never ever let me stray

Far from your sweet smile

Why do I love you?

Is it because of how you look?

You are beautiful from head to toe

In every cranny and nook

Your loveliness shone out to me

From the first time we met

That feeling's only grown stronger

It hasn't left me yet

Why do I love you?

Is it because of how you feel

Your outpouring of emotions

That you release with zeal

You have the biggest, sweetest heart

That is overflowed with love

Giving to all and everyone

Wanting help from no man's glove

Why do I love you?

Is it because of how you think

Never afraid to self express

Against some other click

The values that you hold close

Make you the woman that you are

Out there amongst the millions

The brightest shining star

Why do I love you?

It's because of all of this and more

You are the key that went into my lock

To open up my door

The piece of missing jigsaw

That made my picture whole

I love you always, everyday

With all my heart and soul