I threw the coin into the fountain. It sunk to the bottom. I thought about how much I had changed in the last 48 hours. Found out I have cancer. Got my first real boyfriend. And finding out my mom was pregnant. I’m resting my future on that coin. I don’t know what I wished for, but I know there was a wish.

i say i will

But really i won't

i say im happy

but the tears still fall

i think i love

but im so wrong

i think im right

but i am not

i think i can talk

but i cant even wisper

i think i beleive

but i dont

i think ill come back

but i drift farther and farther

i think i will rest

but i stay for hours more

i say

but i dont

i will

but i wont

Love is something strong.

But it can be broken.

Love is something sweet.

But it can become bitter.

Love is smooth and soft.

But it can harden a heart.

Love is fragile.

When you have it.

Never let it go.

Dear Mother,

I miss you this Christmas more than you could ever imagine. Tullip has died. While Tullip lived a long and happy life as a dog it was time for him to go. James is still in shock from Tullip’s death. He misses her so much. Nathaniel hasn’t come home from the war yet. I am starting to worry. It has been a year now. He hasn’t written since last month. It is hard to stay strong for the children. Lesiel is starting to think that Nathaniel is not coming home. I am losing hope. But I will stay strong just like you. You taught me to make the best out of hard situations. You taught me to always beleive and to trust in God the Father. Leisel and James are doing rather well in schooling. James does not want to do football. But you know Nathaniel. He will make sure that his son makes it onto the best team in all of Illinois. Oh I miss him so much! In ths hard time, I write to you.

From the bottom of my heart with the utmost love, Your daughter,

Sarah

I stopped posting and interacting for a while.I thought that I needed to stop.That I was too involved and too invested. But prose is something I enjoy. And after reading one of our fellow prosers peoms, I decided that I am going to celebrate what I have and not mourn over what I dont have.

I'm tired.

My eyes are sagging.

I long to sleep for hours more.

I've run out of energy.

And when it comes time to rest,

I become sleepless.

I toss and turn in the night

thinking about lifes problems.

I ask if I am selfish.

I ask if I have real friends.

I ask other questions

that leave me alert and wide awake.

I am restless.

I am tired.

I saw you.

It's been two months.

You were so close.

We could almost toutch.

And then you were gone.

We got a call.

I could have had you.

They rejected.

We could have been together.

You don’t know me.

You probaly never will.

I’ll never stop hurting,

at the thought that I lost you.

I'm a lighthouse.

I have the ability to shine light onto someone.

I have the ability to leave them in darkness.

I am a lighthouse whose light only burns when it is light outside.

My light does not shine in the dark of night because were does it get it's power from?

There is no power left to shine light for myself.

So my lighthouse sts in the dark.

I am a lighthouse.

Lost.

Not know were to shine.

Sitting in the dark.

I let the tears rol out of my eyes.

I let the water hit my shore.

I slowly erode.

I need light.

I need some source of power,

to push me through the day.